SO sorry to hear your sad, sad news. What a rollercoaster of a day you've had with things going from ok to devastating so quickly.

Give yourself permission to grieve in whatever way you need to - have alone time (or be with friends), eat (or not), think about yr bubba (or distract yourself for now)... There is no right way, or easy way to handle it, as you well know, but you WILL find your way.

Hugs and blessings for you, may your 2009 be filled with a healing heart and new life.