So sorry you got this news hun. Although my circs are a bit different, I do understand the feeling that the decision to add to your family has been taken out of your hands, I really relate to that alot and I feel that I have basically now come to terms with only having 2 kids because of all the issues I have with a 3rd c/s and my mental health as a result of it but it has taken a long time to reach that acceptance and it is still painful if people ask if we will go again, because the answer to them seems so simple but for us it just isn't. vent away and get your emotions and feelings out because it really is tough to make that decision whichever way you go. xoxo