Thankyou all for your support

I think part of my "problem" is that I can't deal with what we went through, I have subconciously or even possibly conciously pushed it to the back of my mind so that I can enjoy having a newborn..... when ever I sit down and have time to myself and think about it, there is instantly that lump that sit in the back of one's throat, the tears well and I sit there convincing myself not to think about it....

I look at DD2 and I know that she is just the most precious little soul, and she makes it all worth it.

I know we won't be making any decisions soon, but I know in my heart that I don't feel like our family is complete, yet in the same instance could we do it all again...

You are right honeybee, we can't put a value on life, we would just find a way to finance it...

I can't find the right words for you all personally, but please know I appreciate all of your messages

I don't really know where to start when it comes to grieving our pregnancy, the loss of Miss A's twin and everything that happened... and the words from that OB (not mine) who at 29 weeks said we could still terminate if we wanted to just rip me appart

How do i deal with it all? I don't really know where to start, I can't really talk about it without turning into a blubbering mess, I have only cried about it once to DH since DD2's arrival.........