Hi,

I know how you feel, i havent been able to successfully bf any of mine yet.

The first baby i just didnt take to it myself and i dont think i was given enough guidance either.

Second baby, due to PPH they took him away and bottlefed him cos i was still bleeding and being attended too. After that i was so weak we just left him on the bottle.

Third baby i had the most awful afterbirth pains and i was in agony in my belly and my boobs as she wasnt on proparly. The m/w was very dismissive and came in and announced to me that i just wasnt a breastfeeder instead of trying to help me. I got out of hospital and consulted a lactation consultant but i could feed her perfectly when they were there but when i was alone i just couldnt get her on proparly. On day 8 she refused me and that was that.

Fourth baby was premature and hadnt developed her sucking reflex yet. It was hard enough getting her to bottle feed let alone have to work hard to breast feed.

This baby, i have no idea whats going to happen. After a history like that it sort of deflates you a bit and has you asking "Should i bother?"

So i know how you feel.

I hope you can bf successfully this time if its really what you want to do.

Good luck.