I'm having exactly the same thing! DH & I had a massive fight... and it turns out it was all because my mind went off on a tangent which just terrified me. Hard to go into details.. he made a passing comment which then threw my mind into a spin, I made some comment back and he got angry at me for getting all defensive, I disappeared and had a bit of a cry, but then I thought he was giving me the silent treatment, and he thought I was giving HIM the silent treatment, but really I was just trying not to cry around him over such a silly thing, which then led to me feeling like I'm receiving no emotional support, how am I going to cope with the baby, am I going to have to do everything around the house.. will he be this cold and unfeeling with the baby.. etc etc. I had those stupid breathing spasms kids get when they've cried too much and I sooooo couldn't calm myself down. Then that was upsetting me coz I was worried about what this breakdown was doing to the baby... yada yada yada. Looking back it was the biggest misunderstanding and overreaction.
But I know what you mean about being aware of it as your doing it. That's what I was trying to tell DH. He -kinda- understands that, coz he has ADD and is aware of his behaviour and the way he's not concentrating when he has an 'attack' of the ADD's but cant help it.
I've also lost the plot after looking for prams one day. It made me completely doubt every decision I'm making for this baby, and I just lost it. DH was actually comforting in that little outburst tho thank goodness.
Hope it doesn't happen too often for you. But know that you're not alone!
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