Thankyou so much everyone, I cannot believe the support I have behind me, I feel so blessed to have such wonderful people here on BB to turn to during this time .
I didn't sleep much last night, things were just playing over in my head. It is all just to familiar.
I said to Feeb last night (thankyou for the chat) that it is not the long term that worries me, or even the short term actually, it is the delivery and first few months, Matildas delivery was hard, meaning she was not breathing and was rushed to NICU she spent 3 months there (over an hour away in the city) and had horrible surgery where she had to be put to sleep for 3 days otherwise the pain would be so bad for her, no baby should have to go through that and I truly thought I would only have to go through it once.
I know that this may not happen again and I really pray it doesn't but when you have lived it before it is hard not to look back and worry.
Short term, I know my pregnancy was great with Matilda so I am not worried.
Long term, once Matilda got out of hospital my worries went away, yes she still has special needs but I have her with me and she is perfect.
I think I need to just need to work through my feelings, at least this time I kind of know what to expect, and the poor doctors are going to know about it because I am not going to take a back seat this time and get walked all over.
DD I don't think I am the only one here who is completely in awe of your strength. You are an amazing woman and an awesome Mother. I think it was Maz who said that God only sends special babies to special mums and in your case that is 100% true. Still hoping for a miracle for you, but no matter what I know you will handle it all with dignity, strength and grace. If there is any power in prayers and positive thoughts there is a tidal wave of love behind you.
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Thinking and praying for you and your family. I hope everything goes okay on Friday. Your babies are so lucky to have you.
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I don't think I am the only one here who is completely in awe of your strength. You are an amazing woman and an awesome Mother. I think it was Maz who said that God only sends special babies to special mums and in your case that is 100% true. Still hoping for a miracle for you, but no matter what I know you will handle it all with dignity, strength and grace. If there is any power in prayers and positive thoughts there is a tidal wave of love behind you.
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