hopefully this doesn't offend anyone. If it does I'm sincerely sorry.

1 live baby,
1 possible early loss while TTC DS - I'll never know for sure as it didn't occur to me until after DS was born, that may have been what it was.

how do you grieve someone you're not sure existed? I feel like I don't have the right, or that I have the ability to grieve it. I didn't have hopes for it, I didn't bond with it. I didn't know s/he may have existed until DS was 6 months old.
How does someone move past something like that? I feel like I'm stuck in limbo.