My wonderful and somehow aweful craving!!!

[bellelass]

oooooooooooooooh. I keep trying to tell myself that desire is the root of all pain. that Buddhist stuff just doesn't work too well against pg cravings.

I did cry in the grocery a few weeks ago. I'd been wanting some Cuban black bean chili that I used to make all the time when lived in Texas. Full of vitamin C, protein, fiber, so much good stuff, so tasty, and comfort food. I was dying to make a huge pot of it and suck it down with some cornbread. Some of the ingredients were heaps more expensive here but DH loves my Americas cooking and doesn't mind. But there-just-weren't-any-black-beans. I really tried hard, but I did start crying right there in the bean isle. It hadn't even occurred to me I might not be able to make it. Still haven't found any, but I do keep my eyes open. I think I'd step over my grandmother's dead body for a huge pot of B.Bean Chili. I tried using borlotti beans, I hate kidney beans, and pinto beans weren't right either. Ick. We did find cornmeal at a health food store, so at least I can have cornbread. And I've been craving *REAL* mexican/south american food too so I've had to learn how to make it from scratch.

Sorry to whinge so much, but aside from missing my mother, not being able to cook my usual foods has been the hardest part of moving here. I never feel so far from everyone as when I start salivating for some goat meat tamales right from the steamer.