Anyone else scared?? I wasn't when pg with ds.

I kinda feel like I'm not ready to go through all of this again I don't wanna do the pg ( i had a normal uneventful pg with only mild ms being the worst thing) thing I dont want to go through labour (had a good although really painfull 5hr induced labour straightforward)and all the crap after(wasnt well enough to bf ds very very bad tearing took 3 months for pain to go away and heal) and looking after 2 kids omg !!
I do have moments when I'm excited but other moments I'm crapping myself I know u should be more appreciative as there are people who have tried harder to get pg on here than me but I feel a little overwhelmed
I wonder if I'll live this one as much as ds or if I'll move onto the new baby and love ds less

I have just come off meds for pnd because I'm pg mayby it's that