oh guys thank you thank you so much for all of your beautiful, supporting replies and your patience with my panic attacks and hpt obsession (yes I have a spare for a weak moment LMAO). I still have to have a blood test on thurs just to confirm that my hcg levels are doubling properly, but the doctor was really really positive and said "it's good" and was laughing down the phone (I've seen him all of once and he sounded just as excited as me - apparently he tried to call my mobile after hours last night, but couldn't get through! That's patient-interest for you!). The best part is that no matter what, we now know we CAN conceive and that's just wonderful

I told mom tonight - I couldn't deal with the anxiety and stress of having the lecture about not being married yet and my DF smoking (he actually is trying really hard to quit and plans to be completely smoke free by October!) and while I did get a little bit of a lecture, I told her that i didn't want ANY negatives here. I'm fully aware of my responsibilities and it's hardly likely that i've forgotten we haven't married yet (we ARE engaged lol) or that my DF is a smoker! I mean i have had some baby brain already, but honestly... That's just silly! She said she was delighted which has been a weight of my chest. She is going to tell my Dad - I'm a bit worried - or at least i was. Just this second got an sms saying that dad was "fine with it" I think that's her way of saying he's happy about it hahaha. I mean my DF is 31 and i'm 26, it's not like I'm a teenager! it's how i've felt though - a pregnant teenager who should be ashamed. Isn't that silly??? Sigh - I think it was also a blatant admission to DTD with my df!!!! Even though we've lived together for 5 years ahahahahahahahahahahahahaha. Ah well eh?! Thank you all again for your continued support and kind words - I don't know what I would have done without you all! Probably gone even more insane! You guys kept me on the straight and narrow. I only hope this blood test comes through for us