(And by unplanned, I mean, unplanned, not unwanted!!!! )

Well.... I am pregnant. With number 7. We will be a family of 9.

Oh CRAP.

It took a long time to come to terms with having no more babies, but we got there. I have given away all baby clothes, all maternity clothes and all newborn nappies. We were THAT sure. We have a referal to the surgeon for Adam to get the snip. Harmony is now sleeping through and we just moved all the bedrooms in the house around, so we had no babies in our room, and the kids all had their own room except for J and Z, who are sharing the big 2nd loungeroom, and we turned the big double garage into a massive kids play/tele room. We were all settled. We made our 5 bedder into a 6, the kids are getting older, and I was SOOO ready to move on. I am so close to Harmony it is very hard to explain. People that see us together understand. We are like one person, and are extemely attatched to each other, and I was glad she would be my last.

Well, my second last I guess.

I am happy, I am.
But its hard to adjust to. I keep forgetting I'm pregnant. It's my birthday this Friday, so no drinks for me. We have an engagement party on Sat, no drinks for me. Pregnant again for christmas, New year, and I cant make the Qld meet now...... A girlfriend is getting married just after bub is due, so I'll be fat still. I know none of those things really matter, but I was really looking forward to them, and getting myself back.

Ad still hasn't got fulltime work, he is doing small jobs that suck, (like cleaning sewers at the abbitoirs ) so we literally dont starve. Bad bad timing bub!!!!

The worst is my sis is trying IVF again soon. She has just one frosty left in Sydney, and it wasn't the best when they froze it. I feel so so so bad. Announcing another pregnancy just seems so cruel. I know she will be ok, she loves all my babies, its the pregnancy she finds hard. Once they are here she's a lot better. But I have 8 months of hell to put her through if her bub doesn't turn out. I feel like a monster. A fertile one.

All this from one little slip, one that was 4-5 days away from O, so not too much to worry about. So I thought. I keep looking at the stick, and I swear its still getting darker...
I cant to get to my doc for 2 weeks, so I am on Megafolate, 5g, to help with the possability of clefting. Which is another little concern. We were willing to risk it for one more, hadn't planned on risking it again. Although I do know the odds are in our favour.

I hope its not coming across ungrateful, beacuase I do feel extremly blessed. I love my big family. My kids are just awesome. And this little bubba will be so loved by all the family..... the kids will welcome another one with open arms, they are great kids.


I guess I need the shock to wear off....