Yeah Tara - sounds like you are coming to some arrangements within your own head. And I think thats where it all has to come from.
If you are anything like me, people telling me to stop doing things makes me go even harder!
Like working til 36.5w, trying to get up on the roofs and work in harnesses at about 34w, and not being given permits to work, rushing about non-stop, and renovating the house - I should add that was at full term

At some point we have to let go, and I have to say I have enjoyed this pregnancy more because I'm not out there trying to prove I am superwoman!! And the funny thing is I have put on less weight, and I'm emotionally more ready for it all. Much calmer, and sois bubs.

Good luck.