Well, last night was awful. After being in pain and napping all day yesterday, I just couldn't sleep last night. So I was just lying there thinking, wondering why my body wouldn't do what it was supposed to do, having a thousand stupid irrational thoughts going around my head. Then the dog started snoring, which completely set me off. DH woke up at 2:30 to me crying - by this time I knew I was getting a maximum 3 hours sleep before DH had to get up and go to work, and I really just didn't want him to go. So I poured everything out to him, and God knows how he did it but he got me to sleep.
Still very emotional this morning, but I'm just trying to go back to thinking logically. I know the EDD is just an estimate, I know firsts usually go over, and I know tomorrow night's induction is just the hospital rules, not a deadline for me and my baby. And I guess at least I know we'll definitely have her here Thursday, and I'm just hoping all these pains and cramps I'm having are working to make things easier.
Thankfully DH's work is being very understanding, they've told him to take an extra day at home tomorrow additional to his 2 weeks annual leave, so hopefully I'll be able to sleep in and relax before tomorrow night.
I just can't believe I've done so fantastically this whole time, and the last few days I turn into an absolute wreck
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