hiya everyone,

bit of background for those that don't know. got our first BFP first month of TTC, ended in a m/c at 5w5d. we jumped back on the TTC wagon straight away, tried for another 4 months with no luck. we then decided to put TTC on hold for a while, we both just got promoted at work, resigned, new house etc etc. just felt like there was no rush. so decided to go back on the pill...

i missed 1 pill this month... i'm 3 days late... took a test and BFP... the line is faint, but it's pink. it was a squinter and DF was saying i was being silly. so i put it up to a light and he saw it straight away.... maybe it's an evap but i really doubt it...

we just can't believe it... i was tracking ovulation, DTD perfect times and no BFP when we were actually TRYING... i miss 1 SINGLE pill.. and BAM!

i'm just scared i think... 1 of the main reason why we decided to put TTC on hold for awhile is because i have this strange fear that DF and i will drift, will lose all our free time together, our movie nights etc etc. i know it probably sounds really awful and silly... but it's just the type of person i am.

i just can't believe it.... will be buying more FRERs after work so will update...

thanks for reading. and sorry if this offended anyone in anyway