it sounds like you've had a fairly traumatic experience this time round hun with bub. I think you need to give yourself a break before you start stressing about the next one already. Absolutley great if you want them close together but if you can't try untill after Xmas give yourself that time to heal & strengthen mentally & emotionally before you start worrying about what might or might not be. I know easier said than done.

hope you get some great support on here.