Has any found themselves being totally irrational over things and getting really upset??? I'm not a crier - I don't cry and I'm normally quite controlled when it comes to my emotions.

I want to move before Em's here to be closer to my family as I'm quite isolated currently and living in a small unit. Last night I started looking for a new place to rent and then freaked out over money, then thought if I can't handle money how can I handle a baby which then led to me thinking I'm going to be a bad mother. So I was hyperventilating and crying and only calmed myself done by working out a budget etc (which was a good thing to do regardless) But I worked myself up into quite a frenzy LOL. Today I had a little chuckle at myself - you know 'pregnancy hormones' and felt better. Then tonight my Mum made a few comments about the rental I was looking at, then questioned whether I should get a dog or not and said a few other things... and I'm sitting here cying?!?! WTF?!?!? Even worse I walked into the kitchen to see the dishes I haven't done in 2 weeks and gone off on a mental tangent about how I can't even keep a house clean so how am I supposed to have a baby and then I just wanted to give up and hide under a rock!!! I mean really - I can even recognise that this is ridicoulous so why can't I stop it!!!!! I feel so stupid!!

And I think I've just realised that with almost everything now I'm comparing it to now and after Em's born. Up until this point I've been quite calm about being a mother and it's something I thought I'd be great at and was really looking forward to but these past few days... it all sonds so silly and I'll probably fine again tomorrow if not in 10 mins. I guess this is more of a vent then anything. Though it would be comforting to know if anyone else is having is having freak out sessions or emotional fits like this???