It's ok Arcadia, it is hard to trust my body when I feel it has let me down so much. It also comes from TTC as well. It took me years to fall pregnant, I was with my current partner for 3yrs before the twins were conceived. Then it took clomid to conceive this baby. I just feel like my body has failed me in that way, especially because I'm so maternal, and being a mother is all I have ever wanted. It is a hard pill to swallow when you hear of young drug addicts managing to fall pregnant and carry a baby to term when i do all the 'right' things and still don't get to take my baby home at the end. I am working through all this stuff though, slowly, but surely. At the beginning of this pregnancy I meditated and focused on trusting my body and my baby. So far, so good apart from the bleeds