Ok so my latest anxiety is one I feel really guilty about. I have found the closer I get to the birth of my little one the more I am getting anxious about my relationship with my DH. There is nothing wrong with our relationship. In fact it is stronger and stronger everyday and that is the problem. I am beginning to mourn the loss of us as just a couple. I found myself crying sometimes thinking 'this could be our last night just the two of us' I am desperate to meet the baby and for us to be a family but I cannot shake this grief at losing 'us.' Is this normal and I am just beating myself up about it because I am a LTTCer and so therefore think I should be more 'grateful' for this baby than anyone else who conceived easily? We have been together for twelve years and I think that is a long time just as the two of us. Will it ever be the same? Will we drift apart? I am sad for my DH that I may detach from him and he will be neglected. I feel so terrible that I feel like this. Has anyone else felt this?
I have a feeling it might also be because my dad is due to come and stay with us as he is leaving his wife and the stress of that might be a big contributory factor. I sort of feel if our last night as a 'couple' was decided by the baby and not by when my dad arrives it wouldn't feel so bad.