Poppy - I can't offer any wonderful advice sorry as i'm still in the early stages of pregnancy number one, but I can tell you that i've had the same thoughts and you're defnitely not alone, and I think it's a very normal reaction to having a baby! And with all the family stress you've had over the last few months, well I can imagine it would be very easy to feel overwhelmed by everything. Sounds like you're doing a marvellous job - wishing all the very best