Excited and scared- coming to terms with the next stage
Hi everyone,
My DH and I are thrilled that I am finally pregnant and pray our little miracle stays there happy and healthy, and that come next May we have our longed for baby in our arms.
I have however noticed a shift in my thinking, which I have been adjusting to.
I think when we were TTC and then going through IVF all I thought about was GETTING pregnant...and when would it happen, and longing for a baby. The fears and worries I had previously had (when naturally TTC at the start) ....about how we would cope as parents, how I would cope as a mum, would I be a good mum, how I would adjust to the radical change in my life after a full-on career, travel etc to such a new and different role and responsibilities... all those things just faded into the background, as the focus went entirely onto becoming pregnant and the processes, uncertainty and stress involved with that. Now that I am pregnant I am so happy but also a bit scared again...so is DH.... just about how we will cope as parents and with the changes. We want our little bundle so much and just hope we can rise to the task of being great parents. I think watching a friend just survive the first 6 weeks of motherhood and struggle quite a bit, has also really highlighted to me just how tough being a new mum can be. Plus people who know I am pregnant, keep telling me scary stories about birth/motherhood!
Can others relate? I realise it's all probably natural emotions, it's just been a more noticeable shift, coming off IVF etc. Plus part of me feels almost guilty for feeling any emotion other than pure joy and elation (which I do of course feel) at all times, when we have struggled for our little one and want our baby so much....and many others are still struggling to reach their long-awaited BFP.
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