Thanks for the replies. I will try to relax ...lol.
It's true, I worry about losing our little one as it's still such early days, then I worry about how I will be as a mum! My overriding feelings are ones of excitement, joy, anticipation and amazement at what is happening inside...I will try to just sink into those feelings and not dwell too much on the others.
Congratulations! It is an amazing time for you. I wish you all the best for a healthy and very happy pregnancy. Parenting will be all the sweeter since we have had to wait, thats how I look at it. One step at a time, all of those cliches really. And if this week has taught me any cliche better it is NOT TO SWEAT THE SMALL STUFF.
I really think that LTTC affects how you parent- definately
Our twins are now 5 years old- and reflecting back- i know that they struggle we had to go through to conceive them and then for them to survive being prem made me so much more clingy than other mums i know
for instance - my kids have only been babysat about 3 times when we had no choice, and that was only for a couple of hours. I do not let them out of my sight unless i absolulety have to. We dont do anything without them. We go- they go!
It has also made me appreciate that even on crappy days when everything is getting overwhelming- how damm greatful i am to have them. I still go and check on them every night when the are asleep to look in awe how special they are.
We were sitting in the OB's office the other day- marvelling how great it was that we were there to start with and we were there 20 weeks pg- reflecting how greatful we were. Another woman was there with her 3 other kids- she was pg herself. Afterwards she had to make appointment for her 20 week scan and carried on cause she was thinking of going on holidays and her scan might interfer with her wanting to go- couldnt they just put it off she wondered for another few weeks??? WTF
It was amazing the difference in our thinking and mentally- and I believe that LTTC had a lot to do with it
That certainly makes sense....thanks for the replies. And even when people tell me their 'horror' stories about birth or motherhood, in the back of my mind i think, but I am just so relieved and happy to be on this side of the fence, my little one will always be a miracle, that managed to start growing in a lab, survived being frozen and thawed and put back inside me, and still managed to cling on and grow and is now developing into a baby! wow. amazing. when we saw the heartbeat on our scan at 6wks 5 days it just blew us away yesterday. It feels more real and even more amazing. And having a little worry (HCG numbers not rising textbook style) made me again cherish the successful milestone more.
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