Help, I feel like I am going crazy

[monnie]

Hey Smegs

Firstly...CONGRATULATIONS!

What truly awesome news...that is just brilliant...

We weren't TTC for as long as you (we were 3 years)...but I do definitely know what you mean...

I think, as part of surviving LTTTC, you do 'switch off' that part of you that 'knows it will happen'...after so many disappointments, month after month, year after year, I felt like I needed to start thinking differently...trying to think positively about a life without children, trying to 'move on'...and so when it does finally 'happen'...it's actually very very weird...and a whole mindset shift is needed again...

Even now...at 37 weeks...there's still part of me that thinks "this isn't really happening...this only happens to other people"...

I've start really watching those "huggies" ads on tv. and thinking "Oh my goodness...that's going to be me soon"...and it feels so foreign...

So I think what you are thinking (and what I'm thinking...and I'm sure what any LTTTC-er is thinking) is VERY normal!!! We've had to deal with so much disappointment and sadness around our attempts to have a baby, that to shift from that quickly, is probably not so possible...we've experienced "the other side" of TTC and realise that it's not always the 'fairy tale' of "you find someone you love, you decide to have kids and voila!!!"

But...it does get better...every day I'm more convinced that this is going to happen...and it's going to happen to me...it still seems weird and scary but a little less weird and scary as each day passes...

The only way I have got through it is to take each day at a time...and then you realise you're able to take each week at a time...and then each month...

Feel free to come and join us in the monthly PALTTTC thread...it's such a lovely place...

Wishing you a pregnancy that is filled with awe and wonder...

And again...CONGRATULATIONS CHICKIE!!!

[smegs]

Thanks so much Monnie. I feel so much better after reading your reply (and having a good cry!).

Even now...at 37 weeks...there's still part of me that thinks "this isn't really happening...this only happens to other people"...

This is exactly how I feel, that pregnancy is something that happens to 'other people', not me. I guess I will have to re-think that one, now that it has happened twice. I just have to stop worrying about what could happen, but that is easier said than done of course.

Thanks so much again for taking the time to reply to me. I will definitely check out the other thread.

[smegs]

Sorry I also meant to say, Congratulations on your pregnancy! You give me hope.