Hi Girls

I'm still here, just very busy.... firstly will notice the "personality change" ie: change of user name (from kellyd)...

Everyone is growing very fast here, the boys are almost 7 mths old now and Liam is sooooo close to crawling and Rhys rolls all over the floor so have to be on my toes now. Tara is now 2 going on 15 and is cheeky with the odd tantrum and screaming fit thrown in for good measure.

I'm really stressing at the moment as I need to start looking to head back to work very soon which is so hard when you don't have childcare available and to get a place in a daycare centre - let alone 3 places - is near on impossible, so I need to try and find something in the evenings (yeh right). But getting back to work is a priorty as I am in some serious debt - with all the expenses associated with getting my 3 babies here - and seeing I haven't has an 'income' for 2 1/2 years I'm now living on borrowed (sorry for the pun) time. I'm going to have a chat to DH's boss at his Xmas party as she always told me to talk to her when I was looking at going back to work, I can only ask I suppose.

On another front I'm also having a dilemma about our 3 remaining embryo's and just can't bring myslef to have them destroyed as "what if"... Is it my destiny to try and see if there is another baby waiting for us or not, but htey have been on ice now for 3 years so I only have another 2 years left before my 5 years of storage finishes. DH does not want any more children but I just have this niggly feeling that I will feel like I've destroyed a little person if I let them go.

Although, why at this momemt I'm even considering another child is beyond me as I'm so busy and tired running around after the 3 I've got. It doesn't help that overall all my babies have been so go with sleeping and routines etc and we do get the odd bad day here and there but I've never had the non stop screaming baby to put me off having anymore. Oh well I suppose I still have a little bit of time to leave them on ice before I have to make a real decision either way.