BG - You have done the calmbirth course, haven't you? Maybe you can channel those worries and fears through some of the relaxation techniques and give yourself some peace. Whenever I feel my worries starting to overtake me I have to cut them off otherwise I am a useless mess - I tend to snowball when I worry. At first it will be little things and then those little things trigger more worries about bigger things and it then seems to take on a life of it's own until I have a meltdown. Some things are out of our control and I find the best way to control that fact is to acknowledge it, make peace with it and then let it go. I hope things get better with your DH work and I'm sure baby will wait for her daddy to be there - you just need to talk to her and explain your worries and ask her to wait. It sounds to me hat she loves her daddy very much already and wouldn't want him to miss out on the fun :-)

BB73 - Thanks for posting. I think a lot of the not so good C/S stories that I have heard come out of emergency situations where the mum has got to the point of exhaustion and then gets rushed thru to theatre etc. I am worried about infection - I've heard a very guresome storry about a staf infection resulting after a c/s and I myself have had a staf infection after keyhole surgery several years ago. I also had a very strong picture in my mind of holding my baby immediately after the birth and having that time to just be and that still really upsets me that I won't get to have that moment. That's probably what upsets me the most and I don't think there is anyway to arrange to get that moment if I have a c/s. I just feel like I'm losing something that I can never get back. Thanks for the positive story - it always helps to hear some one elses experience.