I'm back to do this wee little post and my sincerest apologies if I have missed anyone's amazing news or heartbreak. I haven't read anything yet but I will. I have forgotten how to do anything but be absolutely mind-blowingly in love and blissed out.
Our little tiny girl was born weighing in at 2.44kg (5.5 pounds)and is now trying to get back up to 2.3 kilos after her initial loss. I'm sorry to say that we had a very traumatic and scary birth experience. I won't be posting a birth story as it's all a bit raw at this stage, but we are through it and out the other side and on our way to complete recovery and happiness. I kick myself that I didn't go private and didn't get those scans I so desperately wanted as Jasmine was born with the cord wrapped around her neck three times! My uterus was also the wrong shape and my placenta not functioning. so if in doubt, my advice, is check it out. Trust your instincts.
anyway, we are out of danger and home now just loving life. I had to fight my way out of hospital, only to be released to one closer to home and then still have to report in her growth progress to the clinic but it is fantastic. I never could have believed that you could enjoy every poo, every wee and every breath. I'm going now....or you know there will be tears. Love to you all,
Ange. xoxox
I'm so sorry that you had such complications during your delivery but am so happy that you are now both home safe and sound. Take care of yourself and I hope your recovery is coming along as well. I'll look forward to catching up with you in the parenting thread once you get your head around that fact that you are now a Mummy, can you believe it....
Welcome to the world Jasmine!!
Sorry to hear that the birth was not soo good Murph...but glad to hear that you are both home .
Enjoy every minute of your mummyhood!!
Yay Murph - CONGRATULATIONS AND WELCOME LITTLE JASMINE!!!
Murph sorry to hear the experience wasn't great hope you find some time to try to process it over the coming months and remember we are all here to listen! xx
BOC - well done on the list!
GRUB - it's weird and scary and exciting to see us move our way to the top hey!!!
Hello to everyone else - sorry i don't have time nor am i really in the right mind for personnals right now but remember i'm always thinking of each of you!
Well i had my scan on Wednesday which was done by a doctor who didn't really give much away (so annoying!) but the diff in growth between my boys was more it's now 500g given that ive now reached 34weeks and from what i have read and know i was thinking this may be a sign it's time to get the bubs out and fatten them on the outside so i went home quite anxious to wait for my clinic appt which was Friday.
Well i'm very very hormonal, uncomfortable and very very over it all - i want them out (irrational i know and i feel guilty) my feet and hands are swelling more and i have begun to get very anxious that something bab might happen to my little one (again irrational but these things happen) and i had my ideas of how my appt would go - boy was i wrong (being a nurse i'm not always the best patient).
The doctor i saw has only seen me once before and i'm not a huge fan!! He dismissed any issues with the growth discrepancy infact was dissmissive about most of my fears and questions he then said see you in 2 weeks - what the????????????
Firstly i thought i went to weekly visits from 34weeks second i thought they were inducing me at 36weeks (which is in 2 weeks and with the way i'm feeling i thought it would be to the day?) and third i'm not happy going 2 weeks without monitoring given my little one hasn't gained much weight.
I did however go to the appt in the hope that potentially i might get a date in the next week or so for delivery given the way i'm feeling so it was my fault a little. He then checked my bp which suprise suprise was elevated (i was on the verge of tears) I tried to explain to him that i get high bp with anxiety/stress and if left for a min it will come down (which is how all my other appts have gone) but once again he dissmissed that and sent me straight to pregnancy day stay for 4 hours of bp monitioring bloods and urine (i was furious he wasn't listening). He didn't even finish his consultation before walking me there and leaving me . The nurse was great and listened to my concerns i have asked not to be seen by him again and will be seen for monitoring Monday and clinic Friday so hopefully will get some better answers this week.
After a long sleep last night (i went to bed at 745pm!) i feel better today and just have to be positive. I'm going for a walk this morning and i just need to try to let go (which i find difficult!) and try to enjoy this last few weeks. I know my babies are better off inside instead of the trauma of having to potneially go to the nursery for a short time it's just that it's been a long journey (for us all) and i just want them in my arms where i know they are safe.
Thanks for listening guys and if you read all my rambling you have done very well.
I will jump on later i the day to catch up with the rest of you all.
xxxxxxBella
Last edited by bella55; November 7th, 2009 at 07:25 AM.
: copy from twin thread post (sore hands!)
hehe thanks hunny ive been waiting fo an updated one of you
im a stalker hun lol
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you had me
already!
that your precious little princess is here
but sorry it was such a horrible time for you.
and we look forward to hearing more about her and hopefully one day soon you can post some pics.
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