Sal,

I LOVE your belly shot, it is a BEAUTIFUL belly!

Your story too, sounds so familiar to mine and brought tears to my eyes. You are an amazing woman!

Me: have to go to the doctor today. My iron levels have dropped, the doc doesn't know why and I am going to have an iron infusion. Trying to put it off until after Sunday as this is the girls' ballet concert but doc said come prepared for admission. Am feeling pretty down and disorganised but in a way relieved because the pain along my scar line is getting much worse and my body is rapidly giving out on me. GD out of control, iron low, pelvis and hips really starting to ache and sciatic nerve playing up too.

Emotionally, all I seem to do is cry and hurt, cry and hurt and don't know how to control this feeling of guilt for wanting my body back, when at the same time I really really want these babies to come out safe. Will let you know after the appointment where I am but am thinking it will be up to you and the girls here to get me through the next four or so weeks of isolation.