Kahlan, Give yourself credit hun. From your signature i can see you have been through so so much.You are incredible to have come this far.
I think it is ok to be a little apprehensive and cautious along with the positivity. After a miscarriage, it feels like you are really defying all the odds. You understand how fragile the first few weeks are and that can be a little scarey. I am trying my best to concentrate on making it through...even though you can't help wanting to protect yourself. Self preservation.

Good luck hun