Pregnancy after Long Term TTC - November 2008

[Gigi1]

BW- Yes yes yes...thank you. I think all that has hit us right now is the fact that we succeeded, won the prize, got it right, achieved the goal, didn't fail again. We are proud of ourselves and it was if there was a part of us that thought...'Right, well done, you are not a failure...pat on the back...move on to the next goal'...in a way. Then you think...Sh!#...this is for real now, this is serious stuff. Arghhh! What on earth have we gotten into...in the last 10 years...have we really thought this through. I know it is normal but you can help but feel these things and feel dreadful for even going there. MWUA...thanks hun

Rachel, hey. You are so right hun, not meant to happen over night. You sound like a wonderful and loving mum. I am a loving person and always besotted by the little devils...but they weren't my own and i could give them back. LOL I look forward to building hte kind of relationship you have with your DD.

Nic, Thanks for the welcome hun...love the action in here and will try and keep up. Somedays all you see are the horrid terrors. The next day you see angels...i am sure we will continue to feel the element of 'are we doing the right thing' all through their lives let alone their conception. Thanks xx
TL, glad you are having a better day hun and letting it all hang out...nice one. Comfy is good!

AFM- Good day today, filling my head with vitamin research and a little overwhelmed with what is right and wrong....it will work out, always does. Dr appointment tomorrow to book an early scan at 6 weeks. Hope he won't give me much trouble for it...bit of a silly git. Then we might skip a scan...happy to do that if all is going well.
I am waiting for 2 BB friends left to find my news...don't want to jump up and down in front of them without their choice in it, but dying for them to know. I hope it gives them hope that miracles happen.
XX HM

[Janie71]

Welcome to Hippy Mum, On Tra_k and Kahlan - this thread really is getting busier by the day.

Not much to report here... really should be working, but just wanted to reattach myself to the new thread.

I'll jump on later and catch up with everyone else.

Janie xxx

[Possums]

Hello everyone...glad to see you are all doing well...and those with scans coming up it must be exciting/scary and I hope they show your little ones doing just fine!
Sending you all the best.

hippymum- I was recently in here in this thread, and sadly had a miscarriage ...I just wanted you to know that in addition to being thrilled to be pregnant I had certain fears about whether I would be a good mum, how DH and I would adjust to the changes to come when a baby arrived etc...it was like for so long, all I thought about was trying to be pregnant...and the fears we used to have about how we'd be as parents etc had slipped into the background...then when I got the BFP, it was like...wow, this is all so real now...and the old fears were there too, along with the pure joy and excitement which I think goes without saying. I think it's pretty natural to be honest...maybe not for everyone of course, but for quite a few to feel some fears about different aspects of things. so dont worry about having some normal fears.
Although, I can say, that now I am back on the other side of the fence, I'd give anything just to be pregnant again, and those fears seem quite small once more, compared to the longing to have and hold a baby of my own....I think if you step back and realise the joy finally having that baby will bring, your fears might also step back for you a bit. Plus of course you will fall in love with your own child and it will all fall into place. congrats.


ontrak- welcome here...it's all so exciting for you...i I can return here soon


afm- well I pop in here because you are all such lovely ladies and some of you I have been chatting with for a while now....so it's nice to keep the contact here too, and hopefully soon I will have my own pregnancy to chat about again too. I can't talk to much about that though..I am getting a bit teary writing this, I just want it so much and while I am getting better again I am still so sad and flat...so best leave it at that for now.

[Kahlan]

Hi girls,

Wow, I was only away for one day and this thread had been so busy.

I am due....Oooo that gave me butterflies thinking about it,...Mid July 08.

What about you?
Yep...very very happy mums to be we are!

I am due mid July 2009 (around 14/7/2009) so we are going through the same stage as each other. Yay! If it's o.k. with you I would love to here how you go with your BT, scans...etc... just to help comparison for me. My confirmation BT levels were good HCG at 318 and P4 at 84. What were yours. I am having another BT tomorrow. I am a bit scared but feel somewhat positive.

Still 11 sleeps to go here however i am up cleaning the house at 1030 so hopefully nesting..... or wishful thinking!

Shan

Oh, Shan, sound so exciting. I spend yesterday with my 2 nephews and oh just the feel of their small hands in mind... indescribible! I can't to wait to hold my baby's hand.

AFM- Got my BT results late yesterday. HCG was 9307 and progesterone 845. Am happy with that! No wonder my "not so little anymore" BB's are sore!!

Hugs to all

Bel

Hi Bel, glad to see you doing well. Wow your levels are so high.. Apparently I was to ms is due to high hcg level so I wouldn't be surprise if you got morning sickness in the next few weeks. Both my sister and mom didn't have ms with their first child so I don't think I will be suffering from ms too. Not sure how I feel about it as I would like confirmation signs but then I don't like to be sick at the same time.

AFM - scan is still 10 days away so the waiting continues. Feeling good, sore BB, very minimal nausea and feel tired but not everyday. I've started swimming again and put DH and I on a strict eating plan so perhaps that is helping keep things even.

Take care everyone,
LNB

Hi LNB. Glad to here you are going well. I probably won't be having my first scan until another fortnight.

AFM, Very tired from yesterday's family outing (decided to take a sicky today). DH is one out of 10 children and we have a total of 19 nephews and nieces. I love them and I can't wait until my child joins them. My MIL (whom DH told about our good news) has unwittingly told everyone. Yesterday she said for someone in my condition I shouldn't eat this and that... and so everyone kind of caught on and assumed correctly. I am not as upset about it as I thought I would be. I had to quickly pull my mother to the side andquietly told her our news... anyway, I was pampered by everyone yesterday... which was good I suppose. I am just worried that, if things don't go well, we will have to explain to everyone...

[butterfly_warrior]

Kahlan, you may hate what I'm about to say... the fact that your mother and sister got no morning sickness doesn't necessarily mean you will escape.

My mother and sister had no fertility problems - I did.
My mother and sister had no morning sickness - I did, from three weeks!
My mother and sister both had trouble-free births... oh crap!

It would be nice to think it could work that way, but it's not always the case as I found out. I'm also hoping that my body will stop doing things in such a way as to be different VERY soon! Best to be warned, though...

HM - that's what we're here for. It's so nice to have that feeling of "this is normal", so don't be afraid to share even if you think it's strange, you'll likely find that everyone will respond with a chorus of "me too!"

BG - I really, really hope that MS eases up sooner than those 4 weeks your doctor is suggesting.

I'm just having a really, really tired day. Munchkin moves LOTS and just LOVES playing with daddy... and of course, daddy just LOVES getting him all excited at night and feeling lots of kicks... then is rude enough to roll over and go straight to sleep leaving me with a bouncy little Munchkin for a while... and he was rude enough to snore last night as well! Urgh... But it's hump day, and the weekend will be here sooner than we think...

BW

[Kahlan]

Thanks for the warning BW.. It's a good thing your DH is excited about the Munchkin. My DH sleeps really easily as well and sometimes it peeves me off that he would be able to sleep better than me.

It is very cute that you have a nickname for your bub. My nieces have decided to call mine Sausage... their reason is that it is a neutral name

[Bel]

Hi All,

HM- Don't ever feel bad for your feelings. This is such a hard journey that we have all been on and I give praise to all of us for staying sane and strong.

On Trak- So glad to see you in here. What an amazing run on BFP's we had in the last couple of weeks. Look forward to sharing your journey with you. I can't really answer your questions on what happens after you get your BFP. I think my journey has been a bit different cause of the OHSS. I am still being monitored, having BT's and scans because of that.

BW- Hope you are getting through the day ok. You'll have to warn daddy that when Munchkin arrives, he won't be able to stir him up then just go back to sleep!! Too cute though!

Janie- Hope things are still going wonderfully for you

Nic- No news is good news I say!!

TL- Will try and make breakfast on Sat. Would be great to meet you finally. Let me know time and location when it is finalised. Hope you and Baby Tigger are well today

Possums- I think of you every day and can't wait til you are back here. Your strength and kindness is an inspiration to us all

Kahlan- Hhmm..I was thinking maybe those HCG levels may mean MS soon but so far so good. I think you handled yesterday really well with people being told you are pg. IKWYM about people knowing and what if something happens. But you know what..I have just decided for me, that this time NOTHING will happen. My 2 little ones have been through a lot already, and they are part of our lives now. I want the world to know we are blessed. I'm not putting an ad in the newspaper, but all my special people in our lives know we are pg.

BG- How exciting buying furniture!! I'm sorry to hear you are so unwell but I think it's a great decision to take the extra time off work. Does your DH travel for work? Mine does and already he missed the 1st scan. I felt so bad for him that he couldn't be there when I was told we were having twins. Luckily we are having another scan on Mon and he will be there.

Nicole S- 2 sleeps to go!!

Sorry if I missed you...so busy in here now.

AFM and the 2 little ones, just relaxing still. Taking things 1 day at a time now. Very excited about seeing the babies again on Mon with DH. Might go and have a nana nap soon..what a sloth!!

Have a good afternoon all

Hugs Bel

[briggsy's girl]

Bel - my DH is a long distance truckie, so can be away anything up to 10 days at a stretch, then home a day or three, depending on what is happening. thankfully he has a fantastic boss that gets him home (albeit sometimes ONLY JUST) for all appointments. he has only missed one FS appointment the whole time, and that was simply because i said it wasn't worth him coming home. every other appointment he's been home so that's helpful. apparently the bosses wife is a bit envious - DH gets home, but the boss used to miss their appointments! oopsie! i think we did the right thing with the boss from the start - he offered DH a job - DH accepted on the condition that he were home whenever an appointment comes up. he started with this boss during the TWW of our full stim IVF cycle - so the boss knew from the outset about IVF... boss has four kids, and wants to be able to spend more family time, so after less than a year, he's looking to train DH to run the business from home while he is away with his family. means more home time for DH, more free time for the boss... and more work for me (DH can't use a computer! lol).

i think the big thing is that i've come to a place of acceptance of physically being a single mum - provided i still have his emotional support. having him home is fantastic, but having him listen when i'm down is what i really need - no matter where he is!

[Mon]

Gosh am gone a few days and there is a new thread and lots of chatter!
Firsty congrats (again) HM, Kahlan and on-trak
Bel - yay twins! How exciting!
Shann ... not long to go hun how exciting!
Hi to you all and will do personals later as was planning to leave work at 5.30 and am still here reading away!
AFM: 1st scan tomorrow! Yay! Cant wait! Of course am nervous as, but just need to go with the flow.
Will let you know how I go
Mon

[Megan]

It's so busy in here...struggling to remember everything I've just read in this and the last thread! I've only just got my computer going again after nearly a week without it.
I had my GTT on Monday and the Dr called and left a message for me today as he wanted to discuss the results. I've called him twice and left messages but he's been with patients so I still haven't heard from him. The midwife said he would only call if there was a problem, so of course now I am freaking out because it looks like I have GD and I have 20+ weeks of pg to go.
Feeling a lot of flutters now which is nice. I also booked in for my next scan which is in 2 weeks, booked our antenatal classes and am starting a pregnancy excercise class this week as well. I feel the need to get off my backside and do something after sitting around for the last 12 weeks feeling tired and struggling with m/s.
Am going to try and keep up with everyone from now on..... sorry, couldn't possibly do personals after reading 5 pages of posts!

[Gigi1]

Megan Hi ya!....a couple of days ago wen i joined...i thought yep busy in here but not too bad...i can keep up....and then i keep meeting more and more new people. So I appologise for when i will regularly miss people...will do my best.

Mon- Yay you are in here too!! Love to you hun and good luck for the scan...i am with you in spirit and 'going with the flow' sounds like a great plan! I will do the same at dr appointment today...first one and already getting a funny belly.

Bel- Thanks Hun, we are all pretty wicked aren't we.. enioy your nap.

BW- Mwua...thanks, I feel much more 'normal' thanks to you girls. Get some rest hun...and boot that loving hubby of yours...naughty!!! LOL

Kahlan- Of course we can share info hun...I am around the 10-12th July...but mid july sounds less definitive! I have Dr appointment today for the first time so will let you know what happens hun. Bear/bare (never remember which one) with me though...the uk is not so forth coming with helpful sometimes...fingers crossed. I am an Aussie in Essex...

Possoms- Oh hun, I am so so sorry. Your perspective has kicked me up the bum...much needed. My heart breaks for you going through this. I had a early miscarriage in May hun and now knowing how much excitement builds from one day to the next...you must have been knocked for six. I send you all my love and comfort and I will do my best to make you proud hun. Take care and thank you so much.

Janie- Hi ya...nice to meet you.

BG- LOL re 'gremlin'. I am avoiding all books and pictures for the time being with pictures of the embryo and early foetus until it more resembles a human...i was in the book store a couple of days ago and scared myself to pieces...Told Hubby....What on earth have you done to me?!!!! Ha
Hope you feel better son hun and having your hubby away so much must be quite challenging. I remember us talking about it a long time ago when i was adjusting to not working with mine. I think you are incredible!!! We are here for you hun...you won't be a single mum if we can help it...well emotionally anyway. Enjoy your bludge day and I plan on taking a similar view as you...one day at a time...don't look too far ahead...I can handle it. a couple of days ago i said to myself, right just get to day 36 first (which was my longest ever cycle) then next get to 6 week scan....then 8 weeks to tell everyone...then 12 weeks will be christmas...etc etc. It is the best way you are right!

AFM- Right you incredible women...you are so empowering and love to you all.
Today for me is the first DR appointment...have no idea if he will take my blood or send me to the hospital again like last time...where i will wait for hours. Hubby can't come which is a shame but i am fine with it. Would be good to have his comfort. I will get past today and having booked my scan for about a weeks time...i will end today feeling very confident with how we are...all 3 of us.

xoxox HM xoxoxo

[melbel]

*throws suitcases in*

Okay which bed is mine?!

Hi Folks...decided it was time to bite the bullet and officially move in here seeing as BG keeps telling me I have to think more possimistic like!

For those who know me "Howdy" and for those who are new "Nice to meet you all and I hope to get to you know you better over the next few weeks andmonths...YIKES! Sounds scary saying it out loudlike that!"

I am so with everyone on the whole focus so much on getting pregnant and then cr8p your dacks moment when you actually do get that BFP.....I think panic is my middle name at the moment. scared of being a mum...scared of miscarrying (gotta love the knicker checking - even DH asks everytime I go to the loo! scared of Morning Sickness, complications (of which there could be plenty seeing as I am a type 1 diabetic as well)...well you get the gist.

I 'think' a touch of morning sickness type stuff has started to kick in the past day or so...just a feeling of being empty even though I have recently eaten type thing nothing too major so far, touch wood. I am with you Kahlan...I am sticking to the my mum didn't have morning sickness, my sister didn't have morning sickness, I will NOT have morning sickness theory. I dont care what you say BW...ignorance is bliss over here!!LOL

I have to have a repeat blood tomorrow to check my HCG and P4 as we will be tracking these for quite a while to come I guess. My levels on thursday were HCG 615 and P4 52 so I am guessing my HCG needs to be around the 5000+ mark if it is doubling properly..... fingers crossed.

And I get a scan next Friday to make sure we have a heartbeart

Anyone here have any experience with taking prednisilone, clexane and P4 pessaries during the first trimester? We are following instructions from the illustrious Dr. Sacks after finding out we have an NK cell issue earlier in the year. OMG prednisilone does wonderful things to blood sugar levels....In the past week alone I have more than doubled my insulin doses and I am still not quite back to normal...almost there just need to do some tweaking...Let the fun begin!!

Okay that's enough from me...Look forward to getting to know you all!

[briggsy's girl]

mornin ladies! hope everyone is having a nice mornin!

welcome on tra_k and congrats! - the next couple of weeks you'll be under the care of the clinic - i started with low HCG numbers so weekly BT's for three weeks to make sure things were rising as they should be. when i was around 6 weeks, i went for a scan - bubs was measurig small (5w3d) but had a heartbeat. i then went back to see the FS the following week, and due to my concerns about size, i was able to get another referral for a scan at around 8-9 weeks. gremlin had caught up a bit (only 2 days ahead of what we should have measured if we'd been 5w3d at first scan) but it was a fantastic confidence builder to see that our baby had grown. after that last scan, we were released to the "normal" pregnancy world - scary thought!! i tried to book in with the doctor i wanted to see for an appointment at around 10 weeks, but due to Melbourne Cup she was on leave - went to the GP on Monday and got myself a referral from him. at the moment, i'm living appointment to appointment. if i think too far ahead, it's just too scary! take each day as it comes. research your care options early (in case you want a popular doctor or something like the "know your midwife" program) - can be very difficult to book in, esp if you're in a major city.

HM - BW has put it so perfectly about that longing to be pg - and once you're there, it's like you're lost. you have all this focus on getting there, and when you finally make it, there's no instruction guide to tell you what to do next! it's daunting for sure! i still struggle with the idea that there will be a bubba in my arms next year. have closed myself off for now to the notion of giving birth (that's too far away) and instead am just taking one day, one week, at a time. each milestone is one i haven't reached before - and i'm intending to keep my focus like that! eventually i'll accept that i have to birth this little Gremlin, and that, once it's here, i'll have to learn to deal with a new born - but from then, everything is about both of us growing together. i think it would be so much harder to be thrown in to the deep end with an older child, but having a new born, you bond, and you both learn about each other from day one.

AFM - having a bit of a shocker - very tired. still feeling exceptionally unwell all the time. i have good "hours" at the moment - can't wait until i can have good days!! will be ringing today to book 12 week scan - and trying to get it to fit in where it's most convenient for DH to be home. it's not easy doing this mostly solo - i know he feels somewhat out of things - even though he cant feel sick for me, or feel movement yet, he is very much a hands on person. he spent the last four days home (bliss!) and was just doting on me and trying to do all in his power to make life easier. i guess i'm still struggling a bit with the notion of doing so much of this solo, but i'm getting better! will be ringing the store i'm hoping to buy all our furniture from today as i know they're having a sale - but the shop is two hours away so i have to do it all by phone as i can't even drive to the PO without feeling seriously ill, let alone going to Melb! other than that, i'm having a bludge day. ringing work to tell them i won't be back for at least a couple more weeks (GP suggested four) as maxalon just does bugger all for severe nausea, and GP didn't want to prescribe anything stronger. will be asking specialist on Monday if she has any other options...

ah well, think i've waffled enough - time to make a phone call or two before i feel too bad - the others can wait til after lunch...