Gabby - I've been wondering where you are and hoping that it was just your horrendous work hours keeping you away so I'm relieved to see that I was right! It's wonderful news about the job and you are so wise to see this time as an investment in your future. I hope in a few years you find yourself in the plum position you so richly deserve. I really think doctors more than earn their money as they sacrifice so much time, energy and funds of their own to build their careers. I'm sure you'll be an excellent surgeon too.

Sal - Hope your weekend in Ballina was good! In answer to your question, I think it is starting to sink in. It's odd, but before I got the positive BT last week, I really thought this cycle had failed and the Crinone was just holding back my period. It wasn't until I lay down on my stomach on the floor and ... I could feel my uterus ... that I started thinking maybe, just maybe there had been a mistake with those damn peesticks.

I've been very diligent since then ... making an effort to eat everything I should, rubbing my belly and talking to the tadpole, telling it to stick. So I guess, in spite of myself, I am already becoming emotionally attached to it. It is so hard not to. I know that that six week scan is crucial so it will be good to get past that milestone and see that everything is okay before I completely lose my heart.

And yes, we have told my parents and Jeff was supposed to tell his Mum but he forgot! Can you believe it? Well, I guess if you knew Jeff ... =)

Bless him though, he was so wonderful this week when Pusster died. He's been so gentle and supportive but he feels the loss so much too. It has almost been a healing experience for us after the emotional grind of infertility. Dear little Pusster - he brought people together in life and he's still doing it. Got to stop before I cry again.

Talk to you all during the week.

Love,

Mel