I can't believe this is happening to us, again! I had my first U/S after a successful IVF/FET cycle. I was feeling all the right things at the right time and my HCG level's have been good but the U/S was not.
Our litte one was behind in growth by a week and the yolk sac was bigger then it should of been, but there was a little heart beat that we saw. It was there but a little slower then it should of been. The Doctor was not mucking around and said that he would give us 10 more days before another U/S but it probably was not going to end well.......WHAT!!!! We are understandly devastated. This was the first time that we have seen a heart beat and it makes it all the harder to deal with. My poor little Banana Peanut was not meant to be.
Today I have lost all of my pregnancy signs and I think that I am starting to spot very light pink.
I am very sad but grateful that it didn't happen later in my pregnancy, I have had to see my poor cousin go through losing a 5 mth pregnancy just recently. I guess there is always worse situations to be in.
I have rung my Dr to say how I feel about loss of signs and they want me to come in for BT on Monday, and hopefully I will have a D&C next week. Please just let this end if it suppose to. My history is:
Blighted Ovum - Sept 06 - Naturally conceived
3x early chem pregnancies since Feb 07 - IUI/IVF
We just really need a break!! It feels good to write this all down here.
My heart is breaking but it will heal and we will have another FET as soon as we can and see what happens. We have one little embie frozen, but after that we have decided enough is enough. We are going to poor our money and time and energy into international adoption, at least we know that we will have a family at the end of the process, that can't be gauranteed from fertility treatment.
Thanks Belly Belly for having these forums it really helps to vent.
Love to all
T
I'm so sorry that you are going through this. It's such a difficult time for you. Can I ask why you are getting assistance when you originally conceived naturally? Feel free to ignore my question if that's too sensitive. My reason for asking is that I was told my only hope of a successful pregnancy was to go to IVF but I ended up not going in that direction and gave birth at age 42. Please take care of yourself over the next few days while you wait to see what happens.
Satya, thanks for the message.
I have PCOS and my cycle is all over the place. So we tried for awhile naturally but just sort of ended up in IVF, where alot of PCOS find success. I hate the whole culture of it and it is life sapping.
How wonderful for you, your little baby is gorgeous!
As I said I know that we are going to walk away from IVF and try naturally whilst waiting for our adopted child, miracles can happen.
T x
Poppihome:
I was about to switch off my computer and for some reason came back on BB and now i know why. Please hang in there. I was in exactly the same postion as you, the US showed a very slow heartbeat i had hematomas and an enlarged yolk sac i was told to go home and let nature take its course (with a very sullen, rubbing on the back) Well nature did take its course and my little man will be 5 years old next month. They are not always right and there is always hope! This is going to be the most excruiting week for you but i hope at the end of it you will have the same happy story as me. I really wish you all the best for the week ahead and the strength to get through it. Most importantly dont compare what you have to go through with anyone else, i know there is worse, but when you are in so much pain, it doesnt take that away and neither it should. I always remember, after my ectopic, one of the girls on BB who had lost bubs at varying stages of pregnancy said the early ones were just as difficult and painful as the late ones, we are only human.
Good luck and huge
Thanks so much, I really appreciate it. I will see what the blood test says on Monday and tryto keep positive until further notice
Lots of love and prays to all
poppihome. I was sorry to read your news. Just wondering if all ok and how you are feeling. Wishing you all the best wishes and I hope you are coping ok !
Hi there,
just letting you know how I am going. Much the same, what a long week it has been and it is only Friday. I was very low on Monday, better on Tuesday and feeling a whole lot better today. Working for Wed and Thurs was the best thing to keep my mind off the whole issue of my little Banana Peanut.
I have sore BB's off and on, and slight nausea at times, it has sort of decreased as the week has gone on. I think that I am prepared for the worst, so that I can cope with it.
My DH comes home today which is fantastic.
I don't want to get ahead of myself or make you feel like I am giving up but this is it. If my little one hasn't pulled throught this week we have decided enough is enough. I have had too much in the last 4 years to deal with. Our lives are on hold and I can't do it anymore. We have one more embryo waiting for us but it can wait until Mum and Dad are in a better head space. I love this little Banana Peanut and the thought of it ending like this is way too much.
Thanks for you messages of support and positive thinking. I am trying to keep positive but realistic at the same time.
Thanks again
I will let you know how the Ultra sound goes on Monday
Hi Poppihome, I am wishing you all the best result on Monday and can totally understand your 'prepare the worst' bit as well. Its our human nature to protect ourselves and its always good to have a back-up plan and knowing where you stand. Do what you feel comfortable but hey lets hope that we don't need that bac-up plan at all.
:( Very sad
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