Congratulations on your pregnancy! Unfortunately I think your mind steps up and tries to protect you as best it can once you have had any kind of loss. I know my pregnancy with DD1 was never exciting - I spent almost the entire time absolutely convinced I would miscarry. I was a bit of a basket case really! I was much better with DD2 fortunately.

Its not like its not bad enough that you've already had your heart broken when your angel is stolen from you, but you have all the normal excitement and joy that you have every right to feel stolen from you too in subsequent pregnancies. Its a very cruel twist.

Hang in there. The feelings do ease - when you get to see ultrasounds its great but (for me anyway) the reassurance of those kicks and flutters is heaven.