Please help me feel less on edge.

[Mummy&Daddy2Be]

I'm almost 6 weeks pregnant with our 2nd child, after losing our last precious pregnancy. So far I have no real logical reason to worry, I've had no bleeding, spotting, increasingly dark tests (I've taken well more than is normal or socially acceptable to admit in public ), no real cramping, have been having some early symptoms etc. From what we know, it all looks fine. But I just can't seem to relax and I am stressing myself to literal tears. After our last loss it took us 3 years to try again. I simply couldn't face it again so I convinced myself that we were happy with just the one and it was only when my desire for another child became embarrassingly obvious and impossible to ignore that I was able to open my heart and try again.
Now I have everything that I ever wanted but I seem unable to enjoy it because I am just so terrified! I check every single time I go to the bathroom. I'm still peeing on things and frantically comparing the lines. I'm having repeated dreams about miscarriage and bleeding. I'm freaking out at every niggle in my tummy, freaking out because I don't feel 'pregnant' enough yet and when I do feel any symptom I manage to convince myself I'm making it up. I just don't know what to do with myself. I know a lot of people go for repeated HCGS & scans and stuff but I am trying to keep a lid on the crazy and not allow myself to get into that habit as I think it would be hard to break once I had that relief from 'checking'. It's hard enough for me to stop POAS! Can anyone help me off the ledge and find a way to approach this more logically? I know I sound like a complete nutcase, I'm only hoping that someone will be able to relate and tell me how they got through it.

hi sweety,

huge 's to you right now!!!! and congratulations on your BFP!!! we don't have any bubbas yet, but we did just go through our first pregnancy (and we did M/C) but we're already TTC again. i can see myself acting exactly like you are now, but you've just got to try and stay positive, stay relaxed, calm and enjoy being pregnant. i know it's hard, and i know you're driving yourself crazy.. but to be honest, no matter how much you worry about it all, what will be.. will be.

everything will work about just the way it's suppose too

i'm sorry i haven't really helped much, but i just wanted to let you know you're not alone , and you're definitely not a nutcase!!

if it does keep your mind at ease, go for as many blood tests as you want, who cares what others think.

i wish you all the best, and can't wait to hear updates on your pregnancy