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Welcome MrsS!
Mia - Glad to hear your scan went well! Yay for seeing your OB and of course your little bean again. That would have been exciting. So m/s has come to visit you? I find eating lots of small meals does take the edge of m/s when it is at its early stages. Hopefully this is as bad as it gets for you.
Mich - Glad to hear your scan went well too. Try not to worry about the lack of symptoms, because the u/s scans are all that matter, and these are showing a healthy baby. As I said above, I have had pg's with terrible m/s and that certainly didnt stop me from m/cing. I think its a myth that m/s means a healthy pg, well for you and me perhaps.
AFM - M/s is here well and truly. I had my first vomit yesterday (after a couple of days of just nausea) so Im not sure how bad its going to get. I feel incredibly ripped off that I have to endure yet more m/s and no guarantee of a baby at the end. Scan still 1.5 weeks away, which is great because Im trying to keep it out of my mind. Pg after many m/c is not easy.
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Hi lovely ladies - glad to hear you are all going well so far - despite the stresses that go with PG after M/c.
Hang in there and wishing you all the very bestI hope you can all breathe easier very soon.
Nothing new to report here - just counting down the days - very excited :-)
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Hi All,
Sorry I've been MIA - HUGE morning sickness happening in this household... Both DH and myself have been sick as and my word it is taking its toll.... Very sweet that DH has been sick and having cravings lol... I cant shake the 'yuk' feeling, its all day everyday just like DD so I guess it will be like this until around 30 weeks like DD... Hoping not, but am so not complaining, I'm pregnant still and am trying not to stress...
I go in for my firs scan next saturday, its a bit later than most do, but i NEED to see a heart beat to eases my mind, this is my 4th pregnancy in 4 years and I only have 1 earthside baby, so I am hoping this one will make #2...
MIA: FYI I take the blackmoores morning sickness tablets, with ginger in them everyday 3 times a day and I do find they made a slight difference for me... I know other women that say it has no effect on them, whether its more mind over matter, i dont care what ever little relief I can get I will take....
Belly Rubs to all our growing bellies!!
**whispers the fact that she cant do up her pants anymore and is seriously thinking she is carrying twins, HUGE belly for only 7ish weeks ***
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HPL - Sounds like a few of us are sick atm. Good luck for your first scan next Saturday. I like, like you have more angels than earthside babies, so I know how stressful it is.
Ok so I need to post because Im sitting here in tears. I cant help thinking something has happened and this pg wont progress beyond the first trimester (Im only 6w3d btw). You might think Im overreacting, but Im not, Im well and truly scared. I just dont feel the same as I did at 6w with my earthside boys. It feels different, just like every m/c. I cant explain it, but the feeling is definately here and I dont want it to be. How on earth can I schedule my scan now. I dont want to hear 'Im sorry' again. Im a mess
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HPL - Sounds like a few of us are sick atm. Good luck for your first scan next Saturday. I like, like you have more angels than earthside babies, so I know how stressful it is.
Ok so I need to post because Im sitting here in tears. I cant help thinking something has happened and this pg wont progress beyond the first trimester (Im only 6w3d btw). You might think Im overreacting, but Im not, Im well and truly scared. I just dont feel the same as I did at 6w with my earthside boys. It feels different, just like every m/c. I cant explain it, but the feeling is definately here and I dont want it to be. How on earth can I schedule my scan now. I dont want to hear 'Im sorry' again. Im a mess
PAML is so hard.
I know it doesn't really help, but this pregnancy was also very very different from my take home DD1. I hope you are experiencing a different but healthy pregnancy. Hang in there til the scan xoxo.
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Thankyou for your reassurance M. I really appreciate it. I never panicked like this in any of my other p/gs. Maybe its a form of post-traumatic stress showing itself?
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Definitely possible. I just got diagnosed with AND... almost certainly because of the path it took to get here, and it's not over yet. It is really hard... really hard, and I think we need to pat ourselves on the back for getting through day by day.
It's so hard for the rational mind to come forward and say "all pregnancies are different and until things are proven I will assume all is well" because our past experiences are screaming at us much louder.
Do whatever helps you. If it's moving the scan forward, do it. Or a relaxing bath, a walk, a distracting hobby.
Thinking of you
xoxo
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M - I know you have had a tough journey to get to where you are now.If only there was a way to switch those feelings off, but there isnt and I guess we just have to deal with them.
I will see how I feel in the morning. I hope this panic has well and truly subsided by then.
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Diamond girl - I'm so sorry you're struggling right now. Everthing you feel is completely normal considering the hell you've been through. In fact, I think it would be abnormal if you were completely relaxed and confident! I don't have any advice on how to relax or stop feeling that way. I've seen the heartbeat 3 times with this pregnancy and despite that, I'm convinced it's all over nearly every day! Would a scan sooner make you feel any better? The first trimester is going to be a really long, hard road but we'll be here when you need to vent your fears
Maruschke - you always have such great adviceAre you feeling less stressed about your preg at this stage? Do you feel more connected now you know the sex and your scans went well?
HPL - 30 weeks of feeling sick with DD!!?I'll take some of that sickness for you. I've put on 2.5 kg already from being hungry all the time - I think I really need to feel sick to stop this!!! Ooh, wouldn't it be exciting if this is babies numbers 2 and 3 for you!!! Ha ha
Loops - you are sooooo close to the end. You must be very excited. I'm sure once you hold your baby in your arms, everything you've been through will be completely worth it. So happy for you
Hi everyone else!
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Thankyou Mich. I appreciate your kind words. This morning Im still feeling really nervous about it all. I just have nothing to reassure me. Not even a scan would do that. Its just an opportunity for bad news. During my previous pg I had weekly OB visits, my last visit was at 11w and I had a scan in his office. Everything was fine, baby was moving and waving its little arms and this was the fourth time I saw the h/b. Then I went for my NT scan one week later without a care in the world, we took our boys to show them their baby brother or sister for the first time (they were so excited), but the image on the screen was a perfectly formed, perfectly still baby on the screen, and of course no h/b. We were told the h/b had stopped less than 3 days before the NT scan. I still had raging m/s. So its obvious that my body doesnt know how to tell me its over. It just keeps on pretending its pg until I have a D&C, of which Ive had 3 in 12 months. Ok, time to stop feeling sorry for myself and get on with it. I just have to ride this first trimester out.
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Less stressed but still not connected. I think it will coming crashing in once the birth has happened successfully (which right now just means getting an alive baby out, no matter how).Maruschke - you always have such great advice
Feeling a bit headachey today, sorry no persies.
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Maruschke - you will have a wonderful birth. I just know it.
DG - I'm in bed freaking out in a similar way. I'm just so scared. And sick. And scared that it will all be for nothing. But I think I've been where you are before, last pg, and I do think it was AND. I thought it was normal PAML feelings at the time, but this time I only feel apprehensive, not obsessively fearful. So try to get some help. Just in case. Numbers don't mean much when you feel this way, I know. So forget em, and just try to take day by day.
Time til my scan is plodding. Two weeks from Monday.
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All
Well the "afternoon" sickness is still here but not AS bad as the other day, Ive been taking the Ginger tablets (2 tabs) at 11am and that seems to help so Im sticking to that, so far so good!
My next OB appointment is not until after the nuchal test which is the 9th of May 9 (day before my bday!)all goes well
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Thanks. Im feeling a bit better now. Not confident, but ok.
Audax - Maybe I have AND too. I wouldnt be surprised. Im sorry that you and Maruschke have it. Im feeling so sick as well and I just hope it isnt all for nothing, again. Good luck for your scan in two weeks. I'll be thinking of you.
Mia - Im glad the ginger tablets are helping. Anything that helps is good.
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DG!!! Omg! Congrats babe! I'm praying so hard for you. I know your fear- sometimes it's so hard to breathe- after all you've been through it seems like all your destined for is another angel. But try and hope- it's all that you can do. It's hard to have faith, when you have before and it's been decimated over and over again- but it can happen.
Just this afternoon I was standing on the beach watching DH and Alex play while holding Riley. There, in the exact same spot on the exact same beach where I stood a year and a half ago sobbing for lily. Thinking that I wanted to die- all I was destined for was dead babies and pain. My then DF held me and I sobbed I was broken- finally, after everything else I'd been through I was shattered. He held me, and through his tears told me that was ok, he would show me how to put myself back together (and that he was good with superglue lol) That was one of the most powerful moments in our relationship- so much so that a month ago I walked down the aisle to 'when I look at you' by Miley Cyrus.
Today I stood there gazing at the biggest rainbow I'd ever seen with my rainbow baby in my arms- safe and warm and mine.
It happens babe, we'll be praying for you.
Lots of love and the stickiest dust EVER xxxxxxx
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Thankyou so much Yas, I was in tears reading your beautiful post. Im so glad you got your rainbow baby and can truly appreciate the gift that he is. BTW, you have one amazing husband there! Thankyou so much. xx
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Very beautiful Yas
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Gees not much chatting in here atm, I hope everyone is well
AFM - just plodding along, today I'm a little nervous as I dont feel any of my "sickness" or anything I usually feel but I'm just hoping my body has started to accept this little one is here and just relaxing? I'm very scared obviously since its 10 wks today and its not like I have an u/s machine at home to check all is ok. I dont have cramping or any signs other then not feeling much. If ANYONE is the same it would be nice to have company....
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