hi girls,

im finally biting the bullet and posting in here, every other time i have had to leave again after posting in here......for those who don't know my story i have a 7 year old daughter and 5 year old son and since then i have suffered 5 miscarriages They have all been between 6 and 10 weeks and we think due to chromosomal problems, my scans usually show bub to be measuring behind and with a slow heartbeat and by the next scan the heartbeat is gone.

last year we turned to ivf in the hope by looking at the embryos we could pick the best to go back and we had a pregnancy in march that ended the same as all the others so then we tried pgd (chromosome testing) and had 4 embryos tested and they were all abnormal, that was devastating to say the least, we then did 2 cycles of ivf to collect more embryos for the testing, that time we tested 10 and only got 1 normal one, that one seems to have stuck.

The last 19 weeks have been so incredibly stressful and i have wanted to live in denial land, I have already been diagnosed with gestational diabetes and im on insulin, i could have done without that complication after all the stress i have already had but i had it with my son so i kinda know what to expect.

i have my morphology scan on wednesday, i have been so worried about it sticking and not miscarrying that i haven't really stopped to think about the possibility of something being wrong, i hope all is fine because i cannot do this again, the stress is too great

i hope i get to stay here until our happy ending this time !