Just popping in to wish you luck tomorrow at your scan WW. Everything will be lovely and I bet bub is super gorgeous. It feels like only yesterday I was going to my 12week scan but at the same time this pregnancy now feels like its taking for ever.

The fatigue is such a killer. I am not depressed but have had depression before and I feel depressed within my physical self. That feeling of no motivation and everything is a struggle. I have made the decision to attempt to defer my course I am doing. I think its for the best as its very stressful at the moment and if I force myself to keep going and do pass I think I will be terribly under prepared to work in that area. At least if I go back whilst on Maternity leave I will have a lot more time to concentrate on the course and be better prepared for working in that area. I have not even heard if it is possible. If not I will keep plodding away. I don't want to have wasted the first half of the course which I have already passed by thowing it away and not returning. I just know if I can defer until July next year it will be a massive weight of my shoulders.

I've always really loved been pregnant but am struggling so badly this time around. I feel so much older this time. Then I feel guilty that its my last time every experiencing this and I can't enjoy it more. I am so under prepared and when I think this bub could be arriving in 3 months (based on my history) I know I can't possibly get everything done I want to get done before she arrives.