emmy83 - i am so sorry this is happening to you again. i can't imagine how you feel. it must be such a shock. you take care of yourself and hang in there. we can't give up. all this pain will be worth it when we are holding our little babies. be kind to yourself and i hope to see you back here very soon. you are in my thoughts and prayers.

human bean - good to hear all is going well with you. nice to get that first ob appointment out of the road. i to am hanging out for 12 weeks to take a bit of load off.

megsmum - thanks for your words. it sounds exactly like me. it has given me comfort. thanks.

afm - i'm doing ok. the news of sammy and emmy has upset me terribly. i am so sad for them. i just can't imagine it happening again. you have to stay strong and have to be brave in this game. my blood tests came back fine. my brown stuff has backed off. now its just speckled little dots when i wipe myself sometimes. i have a headache and ms has returned. not to its fullest but it is back. so, hopefully im in the clear for now. i don't have another scan until 12 weeks for the down syndrome testing. if i'm anxious i will ring ob and have one sooner. i just keep thinking of the day i will have my own baby to love and care for and days like this will be a distant memory.