I had some bright red blood last night and of course freaked out. Went to Early preg service this morning and they did quantitive HCG and scan. Zen is now apparently 5wk, 3 days (one day diff but I won't change ticker yet) and my hcg is REALLY high apparently. Midwife is very happy and said call anytime I need to.
Feel like I can breath. Still have ultrasound on Thursday cause DB was upset to miss todays and I have ANOTHER one next Thursday lol....bring on that heartbeat.
Tina- OMG that must have completely freaked you out. Very pleased to hear that your hCG levels are still very high. Hoping that your little bundle stays put.
Sorry, will be back to do persies tomorrow but had to get out a "me" post cos my head is in a bit of a spin
Think I posted previously that growrth scan showed "upsy" to be on the small side and lowish fluid, although all else great
Well, OB has decided that based on that and the very complex history of this pg, that he wants her out SOON, as in withion the next 2 weeks ( 35-36weeks at max). I was not expecting this at ALL as bubs seems well and my OB is normally one of the most easy going kind of Dr's. Not over cautious at all.
GIven that, I have to assume he has fair reason to be a bit concerned but I am still scared about whether its the right thing to do. It means special care, not taking her home for a few weeks etc etc.
I have spoken to him a few times since on the phone just to get my head around it all amd I have now come to accept his professional opinion but its still a bit overwhelming given I am not really prepared at all for a baby to be here, let alone a premmie. Have been having 3 x weekly CTG's since the scan and everything fine so not overly worried about Upsy, other than possibly bringing her out sooner than she should
Fortunately, he IS going to let me try an induction/vaginal birth rather than c/s.
Will have an internal this wed to see where cervix is at. If not "ready" then he will let us stretch the pg to 36weeks which would be my preference
Man, I was just starting to relax a bit and hoping to enjoy the last "fat" weeks and now stress is back and I am sad to miss out on the last, good bits! I know it wi8ll be great to just have her safe in my arms but this pg has just been all to much
Meredith I have been stalking from afar but I am thinking of you!! This pregnancy has not been smooth sailing but in a short while you will have your little one here with you. Even if it is a little earlier than anticipated. Ask for another scan if you feel it may help to give you a little more cooking time. You know what your OB is like and whether he is justified in his concerns. I can't wait to hear she is safely here
Meredith I can only imagine how hard this all must be for you.
I have to say though that based on my experiences with my 2 girls that I think the longer the bub can cook the better. But having said that, your ob sounds a lot like mine, very easy going and relaxed if things are OK. I know if my ob had suggested that I needed to have Emma early for any reason I would have done it - but I still would have been not happy about repeating the whole NICU experience that we had with DD1, just like you are worried about. Not much help to you really I know, but I just wanted to give an understanding shoulder and say that while our early days with DD1 were no picnic, we were never really worried about her getting through OK them either.
But will be thinking of you over the coming days, you have come so far and the finish line is in sight - hang in there
to all my other buddies in here too - hope you are all well! I don't get too much time to post these days
Hi all - have been lurking and reading in between packing and unpacking boxes, organising the big move and painting our new nursery!
Meredith - will be thinking of you and your precious little one, and hope you can get through to 36 weeks. Am sure your OB is doing/suggesting what he thinks is best for you both but can understand your anxiety - what a rollercoaster this pregnancy has been for you. Wishing you both the very best
Megsmum - nice that you are still popping in. How is little Emma doing - is DD enjoying the new arrival?
Erybery - not long now my belly buddy - r ur hospital bags packed? Hope all is going well
Tina - welcome to the thread and so sorry to hear about your scare. Glad things are looking okay. hang in there
Josh's mum - I completely understand your anxiety and unfortunately for me I am still worrying every day - think I will feel better once baby is here. I did end up buying a fetal heart doppler in second trimester and usually found it very easy to find the heart beat - so overall actually found it very reassuring until I could feel baby kicking a lot after about 24 weeks (since then have rarely used it) - have anterior placenta so took a while to feel lots of kicks. The one I bought gives heart rate reading as well as hearing heart beat but have found the heart rate reading to be a bit inaccurate and all over the place and that caused a bit more anxiety. My OB said it is most important that you can just hear the heart beat but not to worry too much about the numbers (he wasn't that pleased that I bought one as he thought it would result me in ringing him more - but it didn't end up like that and it eased my mind on many occasions).
Greenslw - only realised the other day you are a fellow adelaideian! Yeah for adelaide. Hope things are going well with your pregnancy
Easha - wow you are so close now. Good luck with the labour and delivery - wishing you all the very best.
Chappas - you must be really close too - good luck - look forward to reading your birth announcement.
Karen van - how lovely to have a home birth - good for you. Wishing you all the best.
WTH - how are you doing? I read in another thread that your DD might have swine flu. How is she doing? Hope all is going okay - you have been in my thoughts. I have been so paranoid about getting swine flu - have been avoiding big crowds and even doing my grocery shopping on-line to minimise exposure to sick people. The grocery shopping on-line incidently has been fabulous - no need to lift heavy bags in and out of the car and so convenient. Think I might even continue this during first 8 weeks or so after bubs is born.
AFM: Busy packing up one house, un-packing the other, and finally painting and setting up my nursery. We have gone with 3 pink walls and one mauve wall and it looks soooo girly and cute, and matches in well with the kids-line range of cot accessories etc I have brought. We have been told it looks like a girl on two scans to thought it reasonable to risk it, but if bubba turns out to be a boy - hubby is going to just have to repaint very quickly - lol. Removalists coming friday so that is day we will be living at new place. Just can't wait to get in there now and get everything unpacked and to feel settled in one place. Counting down the days till due date - still getting nervous about everything being okay, and not sleeping well at nights (not helped by needing to pee about six times a night!) Lots of new aches and pains too but all good and no major issues. Mum is putting on a baby shower for me on saturday (should be fun) - its my second baby shower - as work girls did one for me a couple of weeks ago - so spoilt - and this baby is definately going to be spoilt big time - she already has a stack of gorgeous clothes and lots of toys etc!!
to everyone and big hi to all of those I haven't specifically mentioned. Am thinking of you all
babymiracles - Emma is doing very well thanks Feeding like a little champion and she is getting so heavy to carry around! The only bad thing is that she has a little cold ATM The rest of us have had it too so no surprise, but the poor little thing has had a bad few nights. At least she seems a bit better today though. All the best with the big move, hope it goes smoothly! The nursery sounds beautiful! GL with everything, not long now
Karen V - I thought you must have been having a HB - good on you, and all the best with it. I think it would be wonderful, too bad I am classed as high risk and DH would never agree to it LOL Oh well, at least I had a fantastic ob and didn't have to stay in hospital for long! Mind you, if I'd left it a bit longer to leave for hospy I would have had a home birth anyway ROFL That would have freaked out poor DH, he doesn't cope well with the sight of blood!
Hi again everyone else, sorry for the lack of persies. Will try and do some soon, but I have to say it is wonderful to see so many new ladies in here. GL to you all and take it easy through the early days
Can only manage another quick pop in - seem to have so many things to organise!
Thankyou to all of you thinking of me especially flowerchild and Michelle who I I have known but not "chatted" with for sometime. Lovely to know you are still watching out for me - really appreciated!
Megsmum - thankyou too. Can I ask what gestation your DD1 was born and how long in hospy etc?
Easaha,Chappas and Karen - all you ladies are so close its going to be a race to the finish! Hoping to hear some happy birth announcements soon
WTH - Hoping your DD is on the mend and you are not becoming ill at all. Can't believe you and I were IVFing it together 8mths ago - doesn't feel that long!
Babymiracles - HOw exciting getting the new place all ready - its such a fun time with your first. Hope you have a wonderful baby shower
BIg hellos to the many I have missed especially those in the very early days. I know only to well how horribly nervewracking those first 12 weeks are
To elaborate for whoever asked ( sorry can't remember). I did actually insist on a repeat scan last week. OB wasn't keen ( just doesn't seem to like scans much!) but obviously had to agree. So had that with a different Sonologist on Friday.Turned out that scan measured "upsy" much more "normal" and symmetrical. Slightly small but bertter than 9 days previously. NO explanation really for the quite marked difference . Was different Drs doing each scan but the previous Dr we know VERY well from this pg and DS's and I trust he would have measured accurately. I had the w/e thinking we were off the hook for the early delivery. HOwever, speaking to OB yesterday, he said his decision wasn't based solely on scan results. Also takes into account my m/c hx and particularly having lost a twin in this pg plus all the subsequent complications. Just have to trust his experience on all this that he still has concerns about risking letting her go to term and possibly the placenta failing etc.
I am not 100% convinced that she "needs" to come out so soon but OB had initially said 35weeks and has now relented to 36.5 wks if all ok which I am bit happier about. HOnestly, this pg has just been so stressful and draining, I am to physcially and mentally tired to put up any more fight. Its not in my nature to just accept the word of Dr's when I am not 100% about the decisions but I think I am ready to just try and trust him on this one and let mself be at peace. I do think he is an excellent OB and as I said, usually on almost to easy going side.
Take it a day at a time. Every day Upsy is in there is a day better for her. Honey 36 weeks - that's a term baby - she will be fine I am sure. Get that colostrum into her & keep the formula police away!
Start now doing some expressing of colostrum and freeze it. It will help it truly will.
You are so much further along than what you envisioned. This baby girl is alive and well right now. We want her to stay like that. Like you it goes against my grain to swallow the word of one. Sometimes we have to. Go inside yourself abnd listen to your answers. KNOW you have our support and hands to hold...
Firstly - Meredith - . I had not checked my computer the last day or so. It has been quite a journey for you and me, hasn't it!? And I understand how weird it is when something comes out of left-field and you have to get your mind around it. I do know you have received excellent care this PG and was relieved to read you had a better scan result this time around. I had my 34 wk scan yesterday. I had hoped it might give me a better indication of how early this baby is coming. All I know is my cervix remains closed, for the moment. The operator wanted to know what I was doing differently this PG. DD was always on the 50th percentile, but this one is much bigger. I originally thought it might have been all the extra chocolate, but I have to admit I have been resting a lot more. No painting rooms and building vegetable gardens this time around. And less to shop for, of course. The operator said that resting is the advice given to help "smaller" bubs catch up a bit. So I was going to suggest that you slack off big-time until 36 weeks, ok? And thanks for checking in on me on my swine flu thread x POST EDIT: If only making baby's grow was as easy as putting our feet up - but it can't hurt.
AFM - It has been a rough week or two. DD was diagnosed with possible Swine Flu. Like Babymiracles I had been sooooo careful - shopping on line, religiously using anti-bacterial handwash, etc. But, there had been a couple of birthday parties lately... Anyway, DD ended up on Tamiflu and I have been on Relenza (as a precaution). DD seems to be over the worst of it, though she still maintains a mild temperature and now has general cold symptoms. But she is a much happier chickpea which makes life a lot easier. I continue to suffer with a post-viral cough. The pain in my chest has graduated also to my back. It hurts like crazy to cough (which I still need to do) and breathe deeply. Coupled with the return of my sciatica I am pretty miserable. The combination really complicate bedrest. Last night it hurt to lay down or roll over, so I had to sleep pretty much sitting up Had my Ob appointment on Monday and 34 week scan yesterday and things are going well. Bubs is large, throwing the dates out a bit. So if bubs comes early, as anticipated, it should be pretty healthy. My obstetrician has confirmed if it comes early he definitely wants to do an emergency CS even if things are progressing well. Not too thrilled about this, as a friend of mine has had two emergency CS followed by an elective and she says the recovery is sooooo much easier with the latter. But I guess doing it this way is safer than taking the 50% risk of incontinence anticipated later in life (for those not in the know I had severe 3rd on 4th degree tearing thanks to forceps with DD).
Sorry not to continue with persies today. I am really behind on some work (though writing on BB is much more interesting)
Meredith, DD1 was born at 37.5 wks - I went into labour spontaneously. She was conceived naturally, so maybe I was out with my dates or something, I don't know. So technically not premmie, but she had some of the problems typically displayed by premmies - difficulty breathing, hypothermia, low blood sugars and jaundice. She spent 24 hours under lights for the jaundice in the end because her bilirubin was quite high. All up we were in NICU for 1 week before she was discharged to the ward - we came home a couple of days later. Anyway all of her problems were put down by the drs to my diabetes - low blood sugars and jaundice are more likely in babies of diabetic mothers with poor control - despite mine being very well controlled. I always wondered about this theory though, and of course could not disprove it. However since having Emma at 40 wks 5 days and controlling my diabetes well I wonder again, why did Emma have none of the problems that DD1 had? The only difference is the fact that she cooked longer KWIM? Anyway that's my theory I HTH, and of course don't forget that your bub could have none of these problems either, I guess the luck of the draw comes into it to an extent too.
WTH - Huge hun, sounds like you have had a terrible time I thoroughly recommend Brauers Joint and Muscle cream, a hot pack and a nice back rub from DH to help with the sore back muscles, I know exactly how you feel I'm so glad though that bubby is doing well
Deb - thanks so much for the kind words. I know that you, more than anyone, know the hardships of trying to hold a baby in for as long as possible.
As for the expressing advice.... already started couple of weeks ago although not that religous. Will get into it more now when I can find the time!
WTH - YOu poor darl. Sounds like the last bit of your pg is not the exciting time it should be eithetr. Glad DD on the mend. If only you could be too!
Great that bubs is big and doing welll. Hopefully he/she hangs it out until your plannned c/s date
megsmum - thanks for the info re your DD1. Sounds like a rough time. Hope we can avoid that but guess I will have to deal with whatever comes now
AFM - CTGs have been fine and Upsy still active which is great. Had appt with OB today and eased some of my concerns re induction. Stil not over the moon re the whole deal but don't have much choice.
Turns out I am already 2cm dilated so may well go on my own before induction date! OB has now set this for next Thurs given I am "ready" to go anyway. He feels its probabnly my body preparing as bubs needs to come out sooner anyway. Have had another freak at the reality of a date now set but beginning to switch to practical organisation mode. EEEK, this time next week I will be only hrs away from meeting Upsy ( if she hasn't come already)
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