Sweetheart

Take it a day at a time. Every day Upsy is in there is a day better for her. Honey 36 weeks - that's a term baby - she will be fine I am sure. Get that colostrum into her & keep the formula police away!
Start now doing some expressing of colostrum and freeze it. It will help it truly will.

You are so much further along than what you envisioned. This baby girl is alive and well right now. We want her to stay like that. Like you it goes against my grain to swallow the word of one. Sometimes we have to. Go inside yourself abnd listen to your answers. KNOW you have our support and hands to hold...