Hi all, so it seems I am back yet again fingers crossed....I had my hcg levels done today they were 155 so thats great. Lets hope they keep rising and all goes well this time..long long way to go though
thanks audax, wish i was where youre at, to be honest, I hate going to the bathroom....scares me every time, then I am joyous when there is no sign of blood. How long til that fear subsides????
Sammy thinking of you hun It is possible for dates to be out this early on so please try and hold onto some hope. Have you had your HCG levels done? Take care sweety Millyd Congrats on being back in here, thats great news and HCG levels are sounding good. To be completely honest i dont think the fear ever really goes away but i know once i got to 12 weeks it got a little less stressful and then 20 weeks even less stressed and now at 28 weeks i do believe im going to have a healthy bub. To be honest though i still check the loo paper at times for blood. Strange i know after not having any blood since november last year Hope this is a sticky bub and that all goes well for you. Audax glad to hear you are well, im sure it felt very real having told your boss to advertise your position. How long are you planning on working for?? I only have 7 1/2 weeks left of work and i cant wait Dory how are you hun?? I hope your furbabies are doing well and giving you lots of snuggles AFM GD Test this arvo so hoping it goes well, got booked into hossy yesterday and am now starting to think about packing my hossy bag. Am actually washing bubs clothes for our hossy stay as we speak.
Take care all xx
Millyd - goodness - good to see you! Go girl! Your question got me thinking.... and I realised, that paralysing fear that was with me for so much of this journey so far, well it's not as paralysing any more. I don't know if I just got used to it or whether it subsided. But the thing is I am not really sure when all that happened. I think it happened gradually with each passing day/week and with each milestone. The milestones now serve to make me more confident. Still scared, but I am not as terrified as I once was. I just hope that as time progresses and you reach the milestones that the paralysing fear subsides for you too. I still check the loo paper, and I think I always will. But it's really nice to be able to realise that the fear is different now. For me there is more hope. I am not quite yet where Elise it at, but I am starting to imagine a world where I could be.
Elise - I am so happy for you. How exciting to have that belief, I am so proud of you. ( as you can see I can't even type it, even for you, but that's just my own quirkiness). Good you're booked in the hossy and are starting to pack. I have had a bag out for ages and slowly adding to it. Just stupid stuff initially - like maternity pads, lip balm, tissues, baby wipes, breast pads, nappy rash cream, nappies, blankets for bubs, extra toiletries for me and DH, face washers. No clothes as I have been avoiding getting any more and I use the ones that fit. I have a whole heap of baby clothes packed away that I will need to re-wash soon. It's pretty exciting when you hang those wee little clothes out on the line to dry and look at how small they are and realise the impeding reality. So even though I can't actually type it or say it, I am taking some actions that say I do have some belief.
Good luck or your GD this arvo. It's only the 1 hour test right? I did the 2 hour test earlier in the year, 1 day before my BFP actually, and I wasn't permitted to leave the pathology lab, but I think they do let you leave for the 1 hour test! Having said that though, the two hours passed quickly enough with my book and my i pod and the glucose drink wasn't vile like I thought it would be.
Sammy - how are you doing? Thinking of you and sending big hugs.
Audax - how's it going?
AFM - Ob appointment this morning - all good. Bubs heartbeat was ranging between 130 -150 and bubs moved several times. Ob says it's perfect to have such variation whilst bubs was exerting themselves. Then I just came home and watched a DVD with 3 snuggle cats... oh the life. I do not regret leaving work one bit. In fact, I suspect had I not left work, the pregnancy would not have progressed this far. Take care my lovlies. Thinking of you, even those who I didn't mention by name. That's just because I didn't scroll back through the other pages and have a terrible memory.
Dory i suspect from your post that you are really starting to believe and thankyou for being proud of me, i too am just thinking "yeah i should be proud of myself for having that belief" hehe. Glad all went well at your ob appointment and that bubs has a nice healthy heartbeat and nice and active. Yeah the test was just the 1 hour one. They gave me the drink weeks ago when i had my last appointment and i just had to drink it at 3pm and then had an appt for bloods at 4 so all good, the drink wasnt even bad at all. Ill phone the clinic on friday evening and get results so hopefully there all good too. Hope you enjoyed your DVD with your kitties and glad your taking it easy xx
milly - I'm quite sure it never fully subsides. I have been thinking about it today, actually - last time I went in SO clueless about what can go wrong, in fact, just clueless in general. I still remind myself that "the majority of pregnancies are fine" and "every pregnancy is different" - mantras I was given by a loss counsellor early last year.
elise - I'll work until they fill my position. I had actually thought I'd be gone by now, or leaving this week, but I've pushed it back a bit. Thinking maybe up to 20 weeks or so? It's childcare, so quite physical, and not really worth it for me to stay. There are girls at work who have gone right up to 36 or 38 weeks, but I am not interested in that. We don't neeeed the money - it's nice but we can manage without it.
dory - struggling a little! Had a chuck on the way home from work today! Ergh! All worth it though - have loaded the baby pic onto my phone, and it makes the yuck SO much more worthwhile! After having a molar pregnancy, where I was really sick all the way through, and everyone was reassuring me with their "sick is good" nonsense, it was really hard to embrace the m/s. But this time I can, now that I know it's for a lovely baby.
Thanks for the support ladies. It's a hard time because I do have some hope and that will make it all the harder if it turns out badly at the next scan. My last LMP was 14th April which is what my original dates were worked out on which should make me 7 weeks. The thing is, I had a blood test on 9th May because I wanted to take some medication not recommend during pregnancy and wanted to make sure I wasn't pregnant. That test was negative so I went ahead and took the medication and when AF still hadn't arrived a week later I did a urine test because I thought it was odd. That was the 17th May and I got the faintest of lines. I did a blood test the following day and the test results according to my doctor were "consistent with 5 to 6 weeks". I never got the actual figure as you can only speak to my doctor on Monday or Tuesday and she only allows reception to provide the most basic of test results. Consequently I made a booking for a scan according to the blood tests. The ultra sound technician said I would have conceived around mother's day if I was only 5 weeks pregnant now. For a start, DH and I don't remember having sex around that date but can't rule it out. There is a chance I could have ovulated very late (which had been identified as happening in my cycle) and might possibly still be pregnant. Surely if I were really 7 weeks now then a BT on the 9th should have picked it up as they are accurate one week after conception aren't they? According to the scan dates I would have been around 10DPO when i got the faint BFP so I don't know why my BT levels would have been so high by the following day. It's all making my head spin.
Anyway, I can't speak to my doctor till Monday (and the first available appointment is last week in July) but they did give her a message from me and reception rang back to say come in today and take another blood test to see what the levels are doing and there is another order for a scan in two weeks. I will just have to wait till Monday to ask her about the HCG levels.
Hope everyone is travelling well. Sorry I havent had a chance to read the posts yet. Just wanted to let you know that i gave birth to baby Max Wallace Carter on 16th May. Labour was only 9 hours which was just enough! He was 7lb 4oz and 51cms long. He is such a good baby and eats and sleeps so well.
Wishing you all well on the remainder of your pregnancies. Enjoy every moment!
LOL, Well, here I am, so nervouse to join in, but Darling Audax, with a little kind nudge and sharing encouraging words, helped me overcome my Murraycod Madness, to pop in to say hello XX Thanks Audax
You all know me already, so no need for detailed intro, you all know I'm the Mad one
I got my BFP last week, finally, my beta was 700 18dpo and Just on 2000 21dpo, so rising nicely.
Have felt some cramping and aching in the nether reigion since my ET which has had me as nervouse as a crazy woman can get, still have them as of today. No nausea, boobage is only tender sometimes, nothing feels real yet. The only thing I have really had, if you call it a symptom I dunno, is the worlds most QBD farts!! LOL, so grose, I wen't to the supermarket yesterday and almost made myself pass out in the car I stunk that bad, and you know what??? After doing my shopping, I got in the car and OMG I could still smell it !!!! Seriouse, I could have bounced the odour away like a basket ball it was that thick................hhmmmmm, ok enough.....
My first scan is June22nd, can't wait to get it done with, just to make things feel more real I spose.
Every morning I wake up, nope, still no nausea, I wan't to be sick, I wan't to puke and have heavy sore boobage!! Atleast something will feel real then!!
When did you all start to get nausea?? I know I'm only 5weeks in, but it just seems that so many websites I have read, girls seem to get MS before they even get to the first beta??!!
SammyP, good luck for tomorrows appointment, I am praying you have suprisingly great news to share XxX I know this is going to be tough for a while, we will just have to tough it out together X
Dory darling, am so thrilled your babies heart beat is nice and strong XXXX And great to hear that you are having a relaxing, snuggly time at home with your cats! I wan't to drop some of my shifts at work, but I think I will have to wait untill I get to 12wks before I do anything, because If anything happens in between then, I won't have any money to do any more treatment! I know I shouldn't think like that, I should stay positive, I am, but just trying to be realistic with my job at the same time.
I am so glad to know you are doing so well XXXX
Elise OMG how exciting to be washing and hanging out baby clothes!! I'm so jealouse of that!!! Great to hear you are all booked in for the big day! I can't wait to go out and do some baby shopping, not for a little while yet though! So excited for you!!!!!
Milly, IKWYM about going to the bathroom over a hundred times a day to check, hang in there with me babe, we can do this XXX
Audax, again, thanks sweetheart, you have always been one to lift my spirits, I'm so glad to be here with you XXXXXX
Maddison - Congratulations on little Max. I actually stalked you today to see if the baby had arrived couldn't find anything. Glad to hear it all went well.
MurrayCod - I NEVER got morning sickness. I went off coffee and packet mix soups but that's about it. Tomorrow is just the results of my blood test so as long as that is still rising I really won't know anything until the following week when I have another scan. I love the ticker. I am not brave enough to do one yet. Let's see how I feel after the scan.
Dory - Glad you are enjoying the life as a non-working girl. I didn't give up work before DD1 until a couple of weeks before she was due. By that time I was so uncomfortable I wasn't able to sleep until 3 in the morning and couldn't get comfy on the couch to watch a DVD.
I am closing my eyes and dipping my toe in the water too! For those who don't know me... I started TTC No 2 about a year ago. I fell pg quite quickly but started bleeding at 9wks. HB was there and it seemed to be ok. Kept bleeding so kept checking baby. HB was there at 11.5 wks and gone at 12.5 wk scan. I kept bleeding even after a D & C, and another, and another. I bled for 3 months. (complications of the pregnancy) Wasn't allowed to try again for a while but now (after not too many months of trying again), i have another BFP. Feeling lucky to have a BFP but very scared every time i go to the toilet that there will be blood. Scared of getting to the scan and finding no HB. I've had very mild pg symptoms and that scares me too. I agree with Murray Cod, it would be reassuring to feel more unwell. I've had some sore boobs, cramping, and occasionally feeling 'off' but all pretty mild compared to my first pg. Quite a bit of the time i don't feel pg at all. Have others had 'low symptom' pregnancies too?
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It is possible for dates to be out this early on so please try and hold onto some hope. Have you had your HCG levels done? Take care sweety
Hope this is a sticky bub and that all goes well for you.
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