milly - I'm quite sure it never fully subsides. I have been thinking about it today, actually - last time I went in SO clueless about what can go wrong, in fact, just clueless in general. I still remind myself that "the majority of pregnancies are fine" and "every pregnancy is different" - mantras I was given by a loss counsellor early last year.

elise - I'll work until they fill my position. I had actually thought I'd be gone by now, or leaving this week, but I've pushed it back a bit. Thinking maybe up to 20 weeks or so? It's childcare, so quite physical, and not really worth it for me to stay. There are girls at work who have gone right up to 36 or 38 weeks, but I am not interested in that. We don't neeeed the money - it's nice but we can manage without it.

dory - struggling a little! Had a chuck on the way home from work today! Ergh! All worth it though - have loaded the baby pic onto my phone, and it makes the yuck SO much more worthwhile! After having a molar pregnancy, where I was really sick all the way through, and everyone was reassuring me with their "sick is good" nonsense, it was really hard to embrace the m/s. But this time I can, now that I know it's for a lovely baby.