Wish I could say I lurk on a regular basis but unfortunately I have just emerged from the self-inflicted cyber purgatory of having to catch up 2 months plus of the PAML thread while inflicting endless guilt on myself on a weekly basis for not being able to keep up better – let me be the poster girl for the cyber impaired communicator
So much fantastic news to congratulate people on –
Mollycat – lovely to hear your Matilda is with you now – a name with a lot of character
HannahD – what an amazing labour – the fast and furious ones just take your breath away don’t they! Welcome to Amelia Grace! I hope you have great joy in your journey together
Zstar – when they want to come they just come – fantastic to hear Billy is doing so well – you just have to marvel at how ferociously emotional such a little baggage can make you
Babymiracles and WTH – sorry to hear that you have both been battling with silent reflux with your little ones – Sabriyya (DD) had that and a very unpredictable gut and it was not fun – I remember the fretful feeds and lack of sleep vividly now – which is funny (sadly) as at the time it was more an uncomfortable blur – I hope both your bubs respond well and come to move on from the condition quickly
Erybery and Chappas – seen you doing the odd lurk – hasn’t time passed so quickly? – hope your first Christmas with bubs was a hoot!
Welcome to all of the amazing, brave women I missed the privilege of travelling with on this incredible road – Indi1, Tina R, Twin Sis, Tanya, Rachie, josh’smum, Kellym, milly 5, Sunny09, cantwaittobeamum, Cherished1, tashybabe and eliselouise85 – it is so hard sometimes in the earlier days having faith and just being in the moment – and the more we try and comfort ourselves with information – sometimes the less innocent and accepting it can make us. When I look back at my posts and blogs in the first trimester last year – they are full of me reliving the previous miscarriage and the fear that its shadow cast over my new pregnancy – I felt (and still do feel a bit guilty now) guilty that my thoughts couldn’t be exclusively with my growing baby and them alone – but it was a part of my grieving and the letting go – and until you go through each sad ‘milestone’ of the previous m/c/s and get beyond it – it seems that that is when many people feel their faith renew and relax into the experience as genuine and of its own integrity. My heart goes out to people who have experienced late losses as this is a real challenge of strength and I hope if this is the case for anyone here they have the love and support of many positive people in their lives.
Appreciate the progesterone issues – I could fall pregnant but a shortened luteal phase (care of low prog) made it difficult for me to stay pregnant – I had to work hard to extend that luteal phase raise the levels to a good strength to keep my last pg – good luck to all here working with this – it is so worth the effort!
Greenslw – wish you had a cooler run for the last trimester – it is seriously not fun – I remember the few times I visited rellies in Adelaide it could be brutal in summer and freezing in winter (esp. in the Barossa) – must be those fierce Southern winds – hope your time off work allows you to get done what you need to do nesting wise – I always get caught out one room short of being organised! I don’t go back to teaching part-time until next January but we will be seriously povo in the meantime – my last bub so I just can’t think of missing out… Squeak is going to have such a great mum in you!
Smallfryplus – I really enjoyed hearing your jellysprog is an active little girl – I sympathise with the sore feet – I had really sensitive feet this last pregnancy and unfortunately it has continued with the bf-ing keeping the softening hormones in the building – not fun when I jump up on the tiles in the morning but it passes as the day goes on – Hope something gives you relief or it disappears on jellysprog’s arrival!
Josh’smum – I am sorry to hear that your mum has been diagnosed – my partner’s mum has been in treatment for breast cancer for two years now and is on her last two treatments before check-ups and hormone therapy – I hope that the prognosis is good and she responds well
Tashybabe – good luck with your homebirthing plans – it is always a challenging choice as it is interesting how other people receive the news. I hope you have a wonderful relationship with your midwife. My DD (now 4) and DS (4 months) were born at home with two different but equally talented and compassionate midwives and I had beautiful births (full on but just such an initiation into womanhood) which I will always treasure and which my daughter was lucky enough to experience and be a part of (she gives great backrubs and is a great water runner). I hope your experience is a rich and fulfilling one.
Jenushka – hope everything is going well for you and your family!
Meg's mum - I loved hearing how you are going - you were always so positive and such a great support!
Oh and Cherished1 – I don’t think you’re a hippy – I did a sage smudge after my m/c in 2008 and before I fell pg in Jan 2009 to try and free the house and myself and that process did help me feel that my new pg was essentially an independent, fresh event deserving of its own happiness – even though I had those dark moments from time to time.
AFM – Joss is now 4 months old and attempting to dive bomb off anything raised and spends most of his days cracking himself up (and us for that matter) – he looks like a little old man when you put hats on him and we have discovered he looks good with a velvet butterfly sitting on his bum (sorry – mum’s been doing some ‘creative’ photography – but he is a good-natured model) – Sabriyya is running around the kitchen tweeting at 9 o’clock at night because a yellow honeyeater has flown into the kitchen from the patio – otherwise she is looking forward to Kindy next week one minute and is clinging for dear life in the next trying to be a big girl but still wanting to be our baby. My DP did the mowing this arvo with Sabriyya on his shoulders and Joss in a sling on his front – do I need to say more… And somehow I actually feel much saner this time – although how much of my brain has disappeared with two placentas is a concern – recently four of us (all mums – taught on Palm Island and travelled o/s together – haven’t been together in 7 years) sat around having dinner a few weeks ago and not one of us could think of the word for those candle thingies that go on walls (Target later taught me it was a ‘sconce’) – so it is all good
I promise to lurk more often – I’m waiting for the rest of our thread crew who went through together to have their little ones and then I promise I will stop bombarding these epics…
Happy and healthy pregnancies to everyone here and huge family hugs to everyone who has that blurry, sleepless laden joy and bewilderment that makes our children so incredible to us!
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