Hey everyone..sorry I have been MIA

Everything (surprisingly) is going really well.. I am so used to bleeding in every pregnancy that it shocks me I havent even had a spot this time..I have every symptom in the book and honestly I just want to get into the 2nd trimester and be done with this stage. Watching a 2 year old and feeling like your going to hurl all day sucks... My depression is getting a little better since I have passed my dreaded 5 week miscarriage mark....but I still feel low every now and then. I think I just feel so guilty that I am not as excited with this PG as I was with DD and the other miscarriages