Wow - I am truly humbled.... thankyou so very much Forshelby, Tegam and Melster. I am crying again, but tears of love and gratitude and warmth, that I have found such amazing people to be part of my life.

Oh Forshelby, LOL, about icecream. I LOVE icecream. For a little while after HB was born I didn't eat any but thankgod I am back to loving it. It is the elixir of the gods. Just vanilla will do.... what flavour did you have? Icecream does soothe the throat from all the yelling at the small people

I forgot to add a bit about my mum.... why oh why does she says these things when I am only half listening and distracted? Serve me right be not listening properly. Today she told me that there is no way I could have another child as the risk is too high I will die ( due to pre ecamplsia and HELLP) and leave Hannah and possibly the new baby without a mother.... another one of those WTF moments. Talk about catastrophising. I know she means well, but oh dear, that is just such a tactless thing to say. I know my mum is different to yours, but gee mine has some clangers... and I do like to share them, as they just defy comprehension. Oh not sure if I told you about the one the other day? She rang all excited... here's how it went - "Oh you're not still drinking soy milk are you? Reply yes. Oh, well there is a class action going on against bon soy for causing miscarriages because of too much iodine. It's on the telly now - switch it on!" Reply - No". Damn, every time she says that it infers ( at least to me) that somehow my drinking soy milk caused the deaths of my children. Must tell her that one day....

Don't minimise your "feelings"... because they are important to you and make you who you are. Just because you think someone else is having a rough trot doesn't mean that you're not. It's not a competition. It does say that you're a beautiful person to think of others. So remember it's ok to put yourself and your feelings first and work through them. I will listen.

hmm guess what it says is that we have no control over anyone else except ourselves but it can be such a hard road.

T Hopes - Congrats girl - 12 weeks is a great milestone. Next will be your next milestone - so glad you have a scan close by to give you reassurance. Onwards and upwards! Not long til your scan!

Audax - I too love the fact you are the most UTD mumma on BB!

Melster - keep strong... omg ... I would love to eat some chips now... both crisps and hot chips. Do you find hot chips help with nausea? They do for me. FX crossed for no pukkies tomorrow too and especially on Friday! Thinking of you for Friday.

I will try not to take over the thread tomorrow, but I do sincerely appreciate your support. Exactly what I needed... but if ever I need it, friends will also tell me I am being a turkey and need to get a grip. Deal?