Reet - It is kinda fun visiting the old gang, I love how excited they get over the belly. It'll be even more fun once bubby arrives for cuddles! I'm happy to be your emotional baggage handler. I've gotten good at it with my own craziness hehe. I really think there is just no preventing some things, it was her fate for this to happen as sad and horrible as it was. I can't say there was a 'reason' but I'm sure she'll be with you in spirit for a long long time to come. I did see that fb post by your friend and thought it was a really nice thought. Maybe her purpose had been served, and it was time for her to move on. You sound like you're feeling a bit better though, so thumbs up for that. It takes time but you're doing just fine dealing with it. You're right though, she would want you to be happy and to remember the good times more than the sad. Good luck for your scan tomorrow..... YAY! I'll stand by for pictures!

Ferrals - Oooohhh the plot thickens. What a piece of work this guy is! I hate how some people can't just take responsibility for their mistakes (re the written warning) and realize they did something stupid. Oh no, they have to blame EVERYONE ELSE. Frustrating! I have my FX that you'll easily be able to prove they're friends, and that the statement is fake. Was there any security video footage of the incident itself?? Or would that be too convenient, lol.

Tegam - Wow hun look at you go! That little bubby inside is so lucky to have such a strong mummy who can say NO to doctors and their over-intervention.

Kellie - Ikwym about the breech position.... mine went from breech to bloody transverse! Could it get any worse? LOL. I hate those scary pg dreams, I had nightmares all night last night... I won't go into it because they were quite terrifying but I woke up exhausted! I hope you can switch those nightmares for some entertaining crazy dreams instead.

Angelfish - It seems like your bf's mum is in a really tough spot. I don't think she can 'make' her do anything with the cs money...... I'm pretty sure she would be afraid the ex would just cut her out of her grandchildren's lives. It's frustrating I know, but my mum is like this with my brother and his girlfriend (they have 2 kids). She loans them money all the time to get food for the kids, but wouldn't have to if he just drank less! Bah. None of my business though so I just try to ignore it. I know how frustrating it is to watch though, I feel your pain!

Mum2Romone - Wow hun, what a situation! I think you should just give it to him straight. No amount of delaying is going to change his reaction, whatever it may be. And you know what, you should be able to share this news with him..... I don't know how you've kept it secret this long. Don't take this the wrong way but he needs to man up already. He knew what made babies. he knew you wanted a baby. He acted like he wanted it to, so now he's got it. If he can't face that, well boo-hoo for him he needs to decide whether or not he's going to be involved or not. He's a big boy and he participated in this, so don't for one minute feel guilty or worried about it. I would ask him straight out if he was just going along with ttc to keep you happy but didn't want another baby, tell him very calmly but very bluntly that you are pregnant, and he was a fool to go into the pool without floaties if he can't swim. (sorry the pool is enticing me right now it's so hot!) Whatever happens we're all here for you. Good luck!

AFM - DP's Grandma sent us a very generous and much appreciated gift in the mail yesterday. There was a lovely card and as usual she sent us a cheque. I almost swallowed my tongue when I realized she'd doubled the normal amount she sends, and specifically wrote that she wants me to get something for myself to enjoy. I could have cried. I won't say how much she sent us but it's SO needed right now and her generosity is just so beautiful. I think especially after losing my own Grandma this year, her presence in my life is even more important. I think she knows this. (I call her Grandma and she treats me as her Granddaughter). Anyway before I get myself into a tizzy and start crying, I think it's time to go and have a chunky dunk in the pool. (No more skinny dipping here...) Take care lovely ladies!