Sunshine - I think it's only natural to feel the way you do, given the long wait you had to endure to get this far. Try not to beat yourself up over being worried.... it's totally normal. Your boobs have plenty of time to grow, and even the smallest are capable of breastfeeding. Until you're feeling more positive though, I will be positive on your behalf. Also, your risk of loss now is quite low. The odds are on your side, hun. Hold onto that!

Ferrals - I agree about the name thing. I had a unisex name picked out for our first bub. To me, that name has been allocated to THAT baby, and is no longer an option for this one. It gives you a sense of the baby belonging to your family, and a way to remember them. I hope they come through with results for you soon.. this is ridiculous!

Mildez - I don't really know if there is any way to prepare for something awful to happen.. I like to say 'prepare for the worst but expect the best'. Easier said than done. It won't be long now before your belly is really popping out and don't worry about it being smaller now than at 12 weeks. Could it be that some bloating has subsided a bit? The fact that you care so much about this other lady means you're very special indeed. It's hard when there's nothing we can do to help them along.. maybe just be there to hold her hand and support her as best you can. Feeling awful is a good sign that you're a deep and caring woman, capable of real empathy. And that's what she needs right now.

Kellie - Won't be long now and you'll be feeling those first flutters. It is all very abstract though until you've felt something, and your body starts to really change. But you're almost there, hun and doing great so far!

Reet - Don't let ANYONE tell you that worrying and being anxious last pg caused your mc. That's a terrible thing to say to someone, I want to slap them for you! There is and was nothing that could have been done. You did nothing wrong, you were just chosen to go through this, for reasons none of us will ever understand. I don't think you should worry about being worried either (does that make sense?) It's all about balance. For every negative thought, perhaps just try to challenge it with a 'why the hell not' attitude. For eg: you're stressing that bub might not arrive safely, ask yourself why the hell not?! The best way to enjoy your pg is to relish the little things. Not being able to do up your pants, those first flutters, the first time you get heartburn, needing a new bra... all those things. Every time you feel worry creeping in, remember your bigger bra, or pants being undone. It helped for me anyway. I just focus myself on positive things when the worry kicks in. There is no way to stop feeling anxious, really........ all I can say is balance it out with a healthy dose of 'I am bringing this baby home goddammit'. I did satisfy my craving, first it was chicken, then it was gingerbread... lol weird combo there. Find yourself a good quality sushi shop and chow down on something of the non raw variety. I used to LOVE sushi but I've kind of gone off it lately. Trust me, your bbs will grow in no time, and then you'll be cursing them because they don't fit into your tops, and you get that 'spillage'. I feel like mine are constantly hanging out for the world to see lol. I guess some days your tummy will be bigger than others, mine changes every so often, today it seemed really big when I woke up, then smaller by lunchtime. Then I had lunch and WOAH big again. lol. Good luck with the doppler, just try not to over-do it. it might cause you more stress than not having one. But of course it's up to you, hun.

Jenna - Can't wait to hear if you've got a pinkie or a bluey growing in there. I hope your DH gets better soon, must be scary having whooping cough so close to you... not to mention worrying about him.

AFM - So the morph scan went well today. Unfortunately for me, I had to get a trainee, and he was VERY slow and didn't really tell us much about what was going on in there at all. He seemed a bit........... underskilled. For what was meant to take an hour, it took him 2. yes, 2 hours of having my belly prodded and lying in a freezing cold room. I didn't even get to see much of bubs because there was only one monitor, and he was kind of hogging it. He was a nice man, but I was disappointed that I had to miss out on a lot because he was under-trained. Anyway he had his supervisor come in after and she basically re-did everything he did, and took 10 minutes to do it. By that point I was starving, thirsty, and getting a bit fed up with the whole thing. DP reminded me afterwards that they have to learn somehow, and we've done a nice thing by helping him to do that. Pity they didn't ASK me though. Ok so enough rambling. Bubby is doing well. They were surprised we didn't want to know the sex, and might I add...... what cute little chubby legs baby has now. He/she has grown a lot, and as I suspected, favours my left side. The only part I'm worried about is the position of my placenta. They said it's a little bit low, and the bottom of it finishes right next to my cervix. So I have to go back at 32 weeks and have another scan to see how it's going. I really didn't want to have a CS............... but I'm trying not to think about that now as there's plenty of time for things to change. I didn't get to find out baby's length measurement, and didn't get a 4d scan. All in all though, I got what I needed, and that's all that matters. HB was 158bpm. I snuck a peek and couldn't see any sign of a penis, so I'm putting my money on a little girl. Phew, that was long. Good work if you got this far