Thanks so much telly tubby. I am trying to be positive but just keep thinking I hope it hasn't died and I don't know...must stop goggling! I appreciate u telling your story. Dh reminded me that I wasn't worried like this with dd1 and 2 (until after bleeding episode) and that I might have had little bits of spotting here nd there and never noticed it...I have now become a habitual toilet paper checker! I wouldn't have even noticed it if I hadn't been looking for it. I am just expecting something to go wrong - note to self, must change mindset