So basically your just trying to hold on to your sanity till the end of the year? I know what that's like I lived for the next posting there was allways something to look forward to iykwim? I really feel for you I know what it's like not wanting to go anyware and feeling on the edge of depression I was there. Pleeease try and force yourself to get out even if it's just once a week you don't have long to go till the end of the year and did you say your dh is coming home in a month?. The weather up there is pretty cr@py during the wet and can be a bit depressing in itself