Sorry about all the spelling mistakes in my post, I was very upset writing it.

I have tried to edit it, but the website keeps telling me there is an error when i go to re post it.

So here is my post again, I hope with out as many spelling mistakes so you might understand it:



I found out yesterday that I am having a boy and I am completely devastated.

I know that I am suppost to be greatful that all looks healthy but I woke up this morning feeling so terribly upset. This is my first child and for some reason I have always wanted to have a girl and have always seen myself with a girl. I come from a very close family and my sister has two boys, so I think part of my reason for wanting to have a girl was that I wanted to have the first girl instead of the third boy.

I know people say that once I see my baby I will not care what it's gender is, but I don't want to spend the next 4 months wishing that the baby inside of me wasn't there! I can't believe that I am so upset, I wanted my pregnancy to be such a happy time, not one filled with me feeling like I am this horrible person for being so disappointed. I am completely shocked at how I am feeling.

I don't want to upset any body and I am trying so hard to be happy about it, but I am just feeling more and more disappointed the more I try and be happy about having a boy.

If anybody can help me I would greatly appreciate it, as I so want to be excited about this baby.