this is my first, and im not really that far along but i do have moments when i freak right out..
"what have i done?" "Im not ready!!" "Im not gonna be a good mum!" "i can barely look after myself!"
I get scared sometimes coz i dont want to fail and i want my babies to love me and DH coz i know we will try our hardest to be awesome parents. Then i look at my own parents, i despise my father and my mother and i have always had a rocky relationship.. did they try? like us? and di they fail terribly like im scared im going to?
Its so hard coz its the unknown, but i do know one thing, i LOVE my baby more than anything in this world already and i havent even met her yet, i know that she will always love me coz i will NEVER do anything to make that not so.
Yeh, i might suck at cooking, and i may not have a career that i would like her to be proud of, but we will give her the best that we can, DH is super excited to meet her, he keep telling me to hurry up and make her faster :P hehe he's so cute!!

Sweety, you'll be fine, and its all normal. being away from so many supportive people must be hard
But we're all here for you if you ever need to talk xxx