Thanks girls.
I had been seeing a psychologist at the hospital - for other stuff - but she left and I have to book in with her replacement. Ive been putting it off a bit..

Our TTC journey wasnt long exactly, but I do put a lot of it down to wanting to so, so badly, for a couple of years before we started trying, every month I would convince myself I was pregnant and imagine symptoms, even if we hadnt DTD at all that cycle (crazy right?). It was very much like the rollercoaster of TTC without the sex. Then it took 9 months on top of that with a miscarriage in that time once we started trying.

I dont think a doppler would help, for me, as I logically know bub is ok but cant let myself believe it.

ETA - I touch my belly a lot, take time a few times a day to notice her moving, talk to her a little bit, but it all feels so... empty. Like Im just pretending.

Even telling people Im pregnant feels like a lie.